April 5

CSI Vegas: Season 1

Hey Guys,
since I am trying to get my home clean I wanted to watch something I already know and I decided to rewatch CSI Vegas. I loved CSI so much. I loved the team. Few episode are still stuck in my head even after all that time. My love for CSI Vegas is so big but I never get warm with any of the spin offs like CSI Maimi oder New York.

What makes it special


The reason for that is totally clear. It is Grissom! Grissom’s character is such a perfect balance between creepy with all his bugs and knowledge and his way to never give up on anyone. What I always loved was his way to care so deeply for all of team but on the same time could be so focused at the evidence and the rules and that helped him to not take the horrors of the work home, while the other characters always say that Grissom doesn’t feel anything. This is the biggest thing I hate about this is this. Just look at Grissom and his hurt…just look.

Sara


Apparently a lot of people dislike Sara while I love her to pieces. She is not perfect, far from it. In the first season she is judgy and she let the cases way to close to her. While I love her for her big heart and the drive she has when she want to find justice for the victims. It makes her blind and you can also see how it breaks her. It is really interesting to see her journey from this judgy character with a clear black and white view of the world change over the seasons. To know were the story will get her… makes clear how young these characters still are and how much the need to learn.

Team Nightshift


The same way goes for Warrick. I love him and I root for him. I still do even when I know how his story goes. It is different to know his journey and how his story will end. But still I sit before the TV and be like please don’t do it or please just do it. You can do it. Nick is a little boring. I don’t remember much about is journay over the seasons. Greg was one of the person I loved so much, while rewatching the first season I asked myself why do I love him so much? He is just a little annoying and not really interesting. Maybe it changes in later season we will see. Catherine was never someone I liked. The premise of the character I really like. She has a special backstory, is a single mom going through a divorce. She is a strong character and lovely with her daughter. But she is… I don’t know how to describe it. She wants to look the other when she doesn’t think that it is fair. She tells people about an open case. She always takes the cases that she should do because she is way to close to it.

Unfriendly Skies


What I realized with this first season is that I have grown with it. When I started watching CSI I had a clear understanding of the black and white world. I was a lot like Sara with strong opinions and the idea of how to do things. Best example is one of my most memorable episodes ‘Unfriendly Skies’.

This episode stayed with me even after all this years. It is not so much the episode itself. More the last scene of the episode and the question what would you do to survive. The last scene is exactly that. Sara, Nick and Warrick are talking about what they would do in the situation of the passengers. Warrick was like I would save myself. Nick was like I don’t know and Sara was like I could never kill anyone. Catherine joins the conversation and was like I would do anything to protect my child, which even when I am not a mom is so relatable for me and always will be. When I started watching CSI Vegas I had the same opinion like Sara. I could not kill anyone – except when I am with my child to protect it. But killing is wrong no matter the reasons. But while watching the series I learnt more about the world. More about all the grey areas and stuff. I learnt that you never know how you would react. Now I am Nick. I don’t know what I would do…
Than Grissom comes in and says ‘Five people were necessary to kill him but one would be enough to save him.’ This gets me every time because he is right. We stopped carrying about other people we judge with out trying to find out what is the reason. While I know that one of the reason for that is the fear and most of the time we have these fears for good reasons, I know that we all judge way to fast and help way to little. I wish to be a little bit like Grissom.

CSI Vegas forever


I know that there are way better series than this. But I love it and I will always love it. For me it is so much nostalgia and like I said I grew up with this CSI Vegas. I learnt a lot and I always love it when I can get something out of the series. Even when it is unnecessary knowledge. For me especially the first season will always have special place in my heart.

March 24

Doctor Slump

Doctor Slump is a TV-Series from South Korea. It is a series about hitting rock bottom and healing. Actually this is right now my favourite TV show. It made me fall in love with it and makes my smile and cry and sometimes at the same time. So why is it so special.

Hit rock bottom


The story is about two young people. Ha Neul and Yeo Jeong Woo both has very different backgrounds but are very similar in certain aspects. Both were the number one student in their schools and when Ha Neul moved and got in the same school they fought about the place at the top.
After graduation both studied medicine. Yeo Jeong Woo became a very popular plastic surgeon. Ha Neul works at the hospital as an anaesthesiologist. Both of them hit rock bottom around the same time. When a patient of Yeo Jeong Woo dies and he finds himself in a trail about he causing her death.
She on the other hand is used by other colleges for her work and when she has a near death experience she finds out that she has depression and leaves the hospital.
Both are in the worst place and than they meet again and find a helping hand in each other.

Yeo Jeong Woo


The characters are actually the best in this series. Yeo Jeong Woo is a sweet guy. He is very popular without the need of doing something. A talented man, who seemed like things came easy to him. But how often it is not like it seemed. He had to work too. He worked hard for his parents. Parents who don’t really care about him. Actually even when he has a lot of people around him he is actually really lonely and the saddest thing is that he doesn’t have any real friends.
He can be childish but is actually really caring. Sometimes he seems like an arrogant prick but he actually always things first about others.

Ha neul


She is a character that I would dislike in a lot of series. She is a really sweet person, who worked her whole life really really hard. Instead of having fun she learns. She seems like a very lonely girl. But she has a mom, an uncle and a brother who are proud and loving her. Also she has a very good friend. She got used by people and she never stands up for herself. The thing with her is she that she can’t stand up for herself or accept help from other but she stands up for others and tries to help them. She is ready to do everything to help and make others feel better. But she is not ready to accept the same. This is why in every other series I would be so annoyed by her and her choices. But not here. I love her so much.

What we see inside


Every episode starts with one character talking about his feelings. One episode it is Ha neul, the other is Yeo Jeong Woo, the other it is her brother. It is always someone most of the time it is Ha neul or Yeo Jeong Woo or both of them. What we got is a voice over with their thoughts. I know some people don’t like voice overs (like Alan form Cinema Therapy). But I think it is actually the reason this series works so well. The actors show us how they feel for each other, you can see their pain or fear or love. But since this is about the feelings that you hide deep in yourself and they don’t want to show them to others. The voices tell us what it is that they are not showing. It explains to us why they feel guilty, why they feel sad. Because of this we don’t see the story from one perspective. We see it from both of them. It is never just one side we see and understand.

Make me smile


Another reason the series works so good are obviously the actors. They have an amazing chemistry. They are so sweet and open to each other. The way they start open up to each other. Becoming each others support. Seeing them having fun together and healing is so good to see. I could watch a whole episode just these two having fun together. They don’t do anything special. They go to the arcades, karaoke or shopping. But they have so much fun with it and love for each other. When I see them being sweet together I just have to smile. It makes me feel so much better.

Find our people


This series never disappointed me. I loved everything. They message that the important thing is to trying and wanting to get better. Life will never be perfect or always happy. There will be good times and bad times. I think we appreciate the good times more because of the bad times. Just find the people who will stand with you no matter what.
Let people that don’t want to stay go. Some relationships can’t be repaired others are worth forgiving. We all do mistakes and I thing the important part is how we deal with them.
I never experienced something so bad like these two. My journey would be the closed to Ba-da. It was hard to find a job. Something to do. I often felt like a failure that nobody is proud of me and sometimes I still feel this way. Because people tend to want the best for us and for many people that means always getting better jobs, making more money. They don’t mean harm. But there is pressure to always get better, pressure that what you are doing now is not enough. It is so important to know that it is enough. We are enough in our own terms and that people might make things worse because they don’t know better, because we don’t tell them or they just don’t know how to help.
This series is all that for me. It tells me that I am enough that no matter what I find for myself i am enough. It is okay to don’t succeed at everything, it is okay when we lose one chance we will get the next one. Everyone has there one thoughts and problems. We all are just trying our best.

March 21

Torchwood: Dead Man’s Switch

Hey Guys,
welcome to Big Finish Torchwood‘s 33 adventure Dead Man’s Switch. It is an adventure that brings as Bilis Manger back. Bilis Manger is always a fun character because you never know what to make out of him. I am never sure were to put his adventures in the timeline. Since he can time travel.. it is hard for me to put him in the timeline. But this is taking place at the time his at war with the Committee.

The three passengers
In this story we are following Bilis Manger and three other that meet on a train. The train itself is a mystery. All three want to travel somewhere else and nobody can remember to board the train. To get to the ground of the situation all three are telling what the last thing is they remember. So we have three different stories. Actually I really don’t say much about the three short stories because it would take away from the story. But all three are built like horror stories.

The unsympathetic characters
From these three people only one is sympathetic and Bilis Manger is a story for himself. But even with disliking all characters I like the story. Because you never know what he will do or is he good or bad or is he really neutral. What does he want. Why is he fighting the Committee? These whole character is for me a question mark. But that is what makes it so interesting. He is not like my questionable favourite character like Norton which you just have to love. I am actually very neutral on Bilis but I still like to put the different pieces of his character into whole picture.

March 17

Me

Hey Guys,
the last few years were tiring. I know that I never were someone how could do this on a regular basis. There were always bigger gaps before I restart again. But the last years I just stopped. Not just here but on tumblr as well. The only thing I kinda got was Instagram. I just didn’t know what to write and what to do with myself.

I started a lot of stuff and stopped a lot of stuff. I was restless and wanted to do something, write something, draw something, create something but I was to tired to actually do anything. But I was always looking forward to my travels and I always wanted to write about them. I know most likely nobody really cares about this blog. I don’t have much followers or even conversations. But still I want to put something out here.

This time I want to do it differently. I started rewatching Doctor Who and started reading again. I fall in love again with the Big Finish Torchwood series. I just want to talk about the things that I love and yes that are TV-shows, books, radio plays and travels. So I will just start doing it and hopefully this time I find my own passing.

See you soon

March 14

Torchwood: Smashed

Hey Guys,
welcome to the 6th adventure of the 5th season of Big Finish Torchwood ‘Smashed’ with Gwen Cooper. Gwen is working on her own in this adventure because it plays after the 4th season of Torchwood. It is the time when she is trying to make Torchwood work again. Gwen is and never will be my favourite character. But Big Finish is making some good stories about her and I like her sentiment in this period of adventures. I really love the thought that she is trying to keep alive. That someone is there not giving up and keeps one fighting.

Drink to survive

Gwen is hired to have an investigation about the situation in a small town. Where a lot of sink holes are appearing and things like monsters… The ground rule is simple. You drink something like water and whatever it is that is in that water is taking over your body. You can stay in control when you drink alcohol. Does it sound logic? Nope! Does it work? Yes. Gwen is a character that is in control of herself. She never really let loose. Even when she is adventures and runs into danger. She still always goes the safe way. I mean for example she wants Jack but instead for going with it she marries Rhys. Because he is safe. I actually think that she is more logic driven than Tosh. Tosh is the one that makes emotional decisions. But Gwen is always thinking… she does the logical thing. So here she is losing control and to keep it she has to be drunk and give up some of that control. What actually makes this interesting.

Hard to understand

Here we go again with the curse of Big Finish adventures. They are so good and go so much with the idea they have that some time the stories are annoying or hard to listen too. This adventure has a lot of slurred talk because they are drunk. Maybe it is easier for native speakers to understand it, but I have some of the time a really hard time to understand what they are saying. It is nothing I can hear when I do something else. I have to sit down and really just listing to this.

Interesting story

I really like the idea behind it. Even more with a person like Gwen. I know that my way of viewing Gwen is more negative than positive and maybe a lot will think that I have a wrong picture of her. But for me she is this person and because of that this story is so fascinating. It will not be my favourite but I really liked it.

January 4

Torchwood: The Vigil

Hey Guys,

welcome to ‘The Vigil’ the 7th adventure of the 5th season of Big Finish Torchwood. This another Toshiko adventure. We also meet a new Torchwood member Sebastian Vaughan. It is one of the stories that takes place before the first Torchwood TV-Season.

Dangersous Job

Tosh brings the body of Sebastian back home after he dead by a job gone wrong. We met his mother and follow Tosh to get to know more about his dead collegue. Of course strange things start happening. At the same time we see the flash backs to the events that ended in the death of Sebastion and this is most likely connected to what is going on now.
There is always that question are you ready to die for Torchwood. It also a theme. You don’t die of old age when you are working for Torchwood.

This job is dangerous and you have to take it serious. Tosh is always one of the ones that takes everything to serious. It is so sad to see people telling her to start living her live. Stop take everything so serious and don’t work in her free time. But everything that happend always shows her to be serious to look out.
It is so sad that we know who she ends in the end. When she never really started living her life and than it is just over.

Drama

All Tosh adventures have for me that sad undertone. She is such an amazing person. So smart and strong and lonely. You always wish that she would start living but it always ends up with her letting her live goes by. She is not ready to die for Torchwood and still she is not ready to live. All the stories make me wish for her happy end.

December 28

Torchwood: The Hope

Hey Guys,

finally I find the time to write about the amazing Big Finish Torchwood story ‘The Hope’. It is the 6 Volume of the 5 season. It is a story I was really excited about. The last adventure of Owen and Andy together ‘Corpse Day‘ were amazing so I really had high hopes for this story. The combination of Andi and Owen is something I never knew I needed and this story doesn’t let me down.

Doctor Harper

I love stories where we see Owen doing what he actually is. In Torchwood we don’t see him often in the role of a Doctor. Mostly he is working on dead bodies or aliens. So this are rare moments and I love them so much. Because he is such a great Doctor. He may dislike people or judge them but when they are his patients than they are just that his patients. He treats them the best he can no matter who they are. I like this side of him. It also one of the reason that I like this combie so much. Because Owen is more of a bad guy or tries to look like it and Andy is the nice guy.

No one understood

This story is so amazing because of the characters not just Owen and Andi but also the big bad – Megwyn Jones. Andy is sure that she killed a lot of kids. There is no doubt in him. But we see her as a woman that is about to die and wants to make amounds. You are here and asking yourself if Andy is right or maybe she is innocent? Or is she just playing?
The Chief Inspector is on the other hand really unsympatic. He acts like an idiot. Maybe he is not the good guy or is he just an idiot.

What really happened

I really don’t want to tell you more. Because this story is great and how they play with the characters is great. This story has so much more to offer us. What they put Owen through… Everyone should listen to this story. It is so amazing and I can’t wait to another adventure of Owen and Andy.

December 27

DW: Little Drummer Boy

Hey Guys,

here comes another Christmas story form the ‘Short Trip‘-Range ‘Little Drummer Boy’ from the second season. The first Doctor travels with Steven and Sara. Sadly I don’t know any other adventures with Sara Kingdom. I know that she exist and traveled with the Doctor but all the TV episode with her are not available on DVD… so this is actually the first time I hear a story with her.

Random landings

This story is mostly from Saras point of view. We got a lot of her thoughts and that would be more interessting if actually would know her story, but it also gives us in a few sentence a good summeray. That makes it a lot easier to get a grip of her character.
So in this story the Doctor tries to make random landings so the Daleks would lose their corse. But somewho they always end up at earth at christmas through the years.
So is a little boy named Robert. Of course our three heros try to find out what is behind all that. I really like the twist in this story that I didn’t see coming. It is all day excidents…

It is an interessting story. For me it is a little to happy end and in the same time not… So I don’t know where to put this story. But it is a good story and it is the first Doctor so go and listen to it.

December 25

DW: O Tannenbaum

Hey Guys,

merry christmas to all of you and to celebrate I got the Doctor Who Story ‘O Tannenbaum’ from the seventh season of ‘Short Trips‘. The story is about the first Doctor and Steven, who also reads the story. I love the ‘Short Trips‘ but I always find it hard to write something about it without telling you everything that happened. But like always I will try my best.

Christmas Trees

So what is the story about. The Doctor and Steven land before a old farmhouse near a forest of ‘christmas trees’. In this couttch they met a little girl named Greta, who is waiting for his father to come home.
It is not a horror story about it goes for a little creepy athmosphere. Music from a gramophone and the backround sounds a little creepy…that something is going to happen. I really like the atmosphere that they are creating. It didn’t feel like a christmas story but it kind is. A thing I love about the first Doctor is that he changed so much over all the season so much. To listen to the Doctor giving his speech is great and I have to thing of where we started with this Doctor.

It is a great story, with great atmosphere and I love the ending.

June 19

Torchwood: Serenity

Hey Guys,

welcome to the 5th adventure of the 5th season of Big Finishs Torchwood ‘Serenity’ with our both sweethearts Ianto Jones and Captain Jack Harkness. It is obviously between season 2 and 3. Because they official together and I love it. We got way to little about them being together. So I looked forward to this adventure and it is so much more than I hoped for. It is one of the funniest Torchwood stories in a while.

Ken and Ifan

Jack and Ianto go undercover in Serenity Plaza which is the most exclusive gated community in South Wales. The are sweet married couple and has to face normal problems like who does the dishes. These Serenity Plaza reminds us a like of the ‘Stepford women’ from the level of creepiness. The perfect little place. We have their charade outside and we have them getting crazy in doors. Ianto is the houseman and bored. So he binge-watched ‘Murder, She Wrote’.

Little Fighting

It is fun to listen to these two flirting and fighting. Because they are both on edge because of this situation. It is a life these can never have. Torchwood doesn’t allow such a normal life. It is so much fun to see them making fun of these things and Ianto is still so into it. That it scares even him. What I really love the most is about this relationship is that they just talk about everything. They are not hiding what the feel. When it cames up the say the things. What the want, what the wished and how reality is. It is really refreshing to listen to this honesty. I watched so many love series and the biggest problem is always the not talking and bottling all up. But these two they don’t do this. They call each other out on their shit and I love it. I want so much more of them.