May 10

The Walking Dead: Season 2

Hey Guys,

i finished the second season of The Walking Dead and i have to say almost every one except Glenn and Daryl annoy me. Carol is okay to but all the others. Later on i love Beth but in this season she doesn’t have a big role. Don’t forget that this can have spoilers.

Old Crew

There is one big problem. Sophia got scared when Walkers passed and run into the woods. She got lost and the others are searching for her. Rick and Shane are more fighting about it than actually search. But Daryl never stopped searching for that little girl. He just keeps going and it started an amazing friendship between him and Carol.
Daryl becomes the best person and the soul of this group.
Glenn sadly has not a big storyline. He is mostly the arrend boy for Lori and got together with Maggie. Maggie is an amazing character. Lori is pregnant and has to make a big decision. Can you bring a child in this world? I don’t like Lori and i don’t like how she handles the situation or any situations. But i love that Glenn is the only one who really understand how hard this is for her.
Shane, Lori and Rick is annoying has shit. Shane don’t get over Lori and Lori is always making it worse again. Shane is … an asshole that got out of controll. He is not wrong in everything but in the way to handle it.
But the most annoys me Dale. He is not wrong. He is right in most of the things but he always feels so mighty about it. He feels so much better than the others.

The Greenes

In the search for Sophia Carl get shoot by one of the Greenes and saved by Hershel. Hershel is a vet that lives on that farm with his family. He believes in god and in a cure for the zombies. He doesn’t understand that they are already dead. So he is holding the Walkers in the barn. Of course that is a big problem with the others. Hershel is an good man but blind for the truth because he can’t accept the loss. Beth is a sweet girl. A girl everyone would say doesn’t have a chance in this new world. But she survived so far.
Maggie is a strong person but the way he treat Lori and the others… She is a little hot tempered that is her biggest strengh and weakness.

Watching or not

I loved the second season even with the annoying people of the old crew. But Daryl got more screen time and i love the way he makes his place in the group. We are a step closer to my lovely TWD family we get in season three and the following seasons. And the closest circle are Glenn, Rick and Daryl. So go and watch the season for Daryl.

April 26

The Walking Dead: Season 1

Hey Guys,

after a read a good Glenn/Daryl Fanfic i actually had to rewatch The Walking Dead.There are so many people i just forgot… oh my god who are all that persons? It is really fun to see were they started. For all you hasn’t watched the others season yet – this can have spoilers for every season. Because they are all so different now and i don’t think i can just see season one. Because in my head everytime Glenn is so sweet and cute i think about the Glenn in season 6 and the stuff he is doing. So yeah totally spoilers for the other seasons.

Mostly i think i will concentrated on my two favorite person and number three in the circle. Okay no mystery talk. Maybe some of you already figured my two favorite persons. Glenn Rhee and Daryl Dixon. The funny thing is that i am not a big fan of Rick but i love him interact with Glenn and Daryl. For me this three are the main-family and i really love that family. But were do we start…

Those rules don’t aply anymore

Like Rick we got throw in a changed world. There are walking deads in the street. Towns are empty and silent. The world ends. Rick actually is form the beginning a survivor. He is inventiv and never gave up. Always searching for a way to get out.
Rick is searching for his wife and son, who got with Shane – his best friend – to Atlanta. Shane is the man in charge of a group of people. Daryl and Glenn are part of that group.
I would never put Shane in charge but on the other hand when you see the other maybe i would. But Shane is a massive asshole and i know i hated him when the got to the CDC and at the farm, but i forgot that he even before Rick got back was a big asshole.
The way he talks to Lori. I really want to struggle him. How can she let him talk to her like that? I am not a big fan of her either but hey… no reason to be such an asshole.

Dixon brothers

Merle and Daryl Dixon are the black sheeps in group. Merle is a very dangerous man. He is full of hate against everything. The way he treats women says enough about him. But he is also a racist and brings the whole group in danger. What i not just get is why he actually stayed with the group because a big part of the group are from different origin. Daryl in the first moments we see him like his brother…but this is totally wrong. Yes he lose his temper with the group and threaten them because them let his brother on a rooftop in the city to die. No matter what asshole Merle is, he is Daryls brother and the onyl family he has left. He is not angry with T-Dog because he is black. He is angry because he let the key fall.
He tries to protect Glenn and when the camp got atacked he fought with them and not once think about leaving the group to search again for his brother.
He is coming with them, he is fighting with them. Daryl Dixon is one of the best persons on this show. This group left his brother to die. But he forgave them. He fights with them, protects them, saves T-Dog, who is responsible for it, without hesitation and goes search for Sophia and doesn’t want to give up and that is just what happend in the first season – in 6 Episodes.
Daryl is amazing and will always be my favorite person.

Surviving

I already watched season 6. The group around Rick is so close and knows each other so well. They know what they have to do to survive. Nobody who tried to confront and attack the group got out it alive. They are fighters and do everything to protect their own.
In season one is nothing of that their. They don’t stand behind Shanes decission and not behind Ricks – not even his wife. They live together and that is all. They group is not working pretty good together. THey are cute and soo naive. What they have to do to survior is always a fight to overcome themself. It is not surprising they have to learn how the new world fuctioned. But it is so sweet to see them like that and than sees them like they are now.

Watching or not

Obviously i thought the serie is worth watching when i already watched the other season. But the season one is good. When i first heart about the serie i didn’t want to watch it. I am not a big fan of the Zombie- Genre and doesn’t know how the want to make a serie about it. But it is amazing. Yes some scenes are disgusting but it is not as disgusting as it could be. In season one it is more about the people than about the zombies and that makes it so good. The zombies are just their but it is a story about this group and their new life.

February 6

TW: Season 6.1

Hey Guys,

you all know that i am kinda crazy into Teen Wolf and that i can write novels about it. Now i watched like everytime the newest season of Teen Wolf – every week one episode. You of course noticed that i didn’t write an article about any of these episodes. Why is that? Because i don’t know what to say about it. This season is a really big let down. I always thought that Teen Wolf get better and better. I loved everything about it. I had so much hope for this last season and lot of trust in Jeff to make it work so that i will be totally in love with this season. But this is not what happend. What happend is that don’t want to pay for the DVD’s and that at least season 6.1 will not find his way into my cupboard. One big thing that makes the season not really good is of course the lack of Stiles. That is something that sadly couldn’t be changed. I really love that they made the storyline so that Stiles can still be in it even when Dylan O’Brien couldn’t be there to film the season. So i don’t hold that against the season.
But sadly other things are even worse than the absends of Stiles. There are two mayor points i dislike in this season Marrish and Lydia (not just as part of Stydia).

But lets start at the beginning. The plot…

At the beginning were the memory loss

The Story is that their is the wild hunt and they earse people completely. Nobody remembers them and the things they own vanish or more true would be couldn’t be seen anymore by others. This wild hunt earse Stiles from this world. So nobody is remembering him anymore. But everything is still the same. Means Scott is still a werwolf, Malia is still human and not a coyele and without Stiles nothing of that would have happend. Which means when you think about it a few memories just doesn’t make sense.
The only thing that really is different is Stiles Mother. She is still alive and isn’t ill anymore. She overcome her illness – what is like i understand utterly impossible – but she is alive.
The second storyline is about the NaziWerwolf. A really bad storyline. You know from the start who the teacher is and Liam and his friends deal with all of that shit alone because the other are trying to get Stiles back.
Which means Chris and Melissa are dealing mostly with the wild hunt. What actually amazing because of reason i will get later into.

Lydia and her break downs – countains maybe a little spoilers

I really like Lydia. I love her character growing and this stuff. She was a really mean and manipulating person in the first season. The way she treated Jackson was really bad. I am still angry that everyone seems to forget how she treated him like shit when they were together. In the second season i started to feel with her because nobody was there for her and i mean nobody – nor Allison or Stiles. She was alone and thought that Peter was still out there. I really hate what they did to her with keeping her in the dark and than she have to see her big love die infornt of her eyes. In the end we see her and Jackson declarying their love and Stiles sees it too. He sees that he will never have a chance. Than Aiden came and Lydia grow alot in this relationship because Aiden made clear to her what person she doesn’t want to be. It is amazing to see her actually having a friendship with Allison and see her becoming independant and part of the pack. What i love the most about it is that it is not about Jackson, Stiles or Aiden. It is about Scott. She starts embrassing her abillities because of Scott. Because Scott told her that he had her back. She tells him who dies and he goes and save them. That is the reason she start to really do this. Scott is the reason she is in the pack and why she stayed fighting. Really i love the scene where Derek is explaining that to Aiden. That is Lydia. She isn’t in love with Scott but she respects him and she trusts him so much.
We see her out grow Jackson, Aiden and Stiles. Than she met Parrish and Parrish treated her like she deserved it. They were so amazing for each other. The chemestry between them was so good. Lydia became such a strong person who actually looked for a guy she deserved.

Than season 6 started and from all of a sudden Parrish and Lydia have not one scene together anymore. Parrish exist as Parrish just because Lydia holds him in this world. Now this whole storyline seems to vanish into thin air. The only thing that counts for Lydia is Stiles. I hate it so much. The last season the wish to protect her friend Malia brought her back. Now she let all of her friends fight the bad teacher and the wild hunt alone because she has to save Stiles. For me it is so out of charactere. This is Lydia she would never let anything like Allisons death happen again but this is what she is doing. She is doing nothing. She just breaks down and cries and talks about Stiles. I want her to fight to remember him but not like that not over the cost of everyone else.

I hate how she is talking to the Sheriff and i get that most of the fandom hates Claudia (Stiles Mom) but she is the wife the Sheriff is loving. He loves her with everything he had and her death broke him. The only reason he is still alive and healt is because he had Stiles. How could she be like that. I get that she wants him back and wants the Sheriff to remember him but – not like that… my heart broke for him when he actually understood the truth behind everything…

Hales and their anchor …stydia and other things

I love Malia and my heart breaks for her. She built her life around Stiles. Stiles is that one person for her. Stiles is the one that holds her human. Stiles is her anchor. I love that fact and i wish we would see more of her struggle with that and her feelings of helplessness. But it made me also miss Derek even more. Because Stiles became also his anchor. Which is so amazing. It made me wish that Derek would be there and we would see a relationship that developed slowly and naturally into something more not like the forced Stydia. I am tried to accept Stydia and understand it. But i can’t understand it. I had a lovely person (heygarretshutup) that tried really hard to explain it too me. Sadly for me i have a complete different point of view on the characters and their character. That is why for me these two still don’t make sense. But even when i couldn’t understand it i wanted to accept it because when it will be conan i have to live with it and i love Teen Wolf and i don’t want to stop loving it because a ship became reality i don’t like. My hope that there will be a turning point is still there. But that hope dies slowly. The way Stydia is made in this season feels so forced on my. Truth be told i would be angry if they would make Sterek real in that way. Because it feels forced and cheated and wrong… and i really want Sterek to be canon but in an natural and amazing way.
So i can’t understand or accept Stydia. I just can’t. I totally started hating it and everything to do with it. I hate to admit it but it seems like i am totally that person that stop loving a serie because of the ship they seem to make canon.
If they bring Jackson back just to show him that he lost Lydia to Stiles … i will … oh god i will be so angry at that. Don’t bring Jackson back just to hurt him. Don’t hurt him anymore.

The grown ups

From the first two season on i had a wish how the season would end and i don’t mean any ship with it. This is not about Sterek or Stydia or anyother ship. The first thing i wanted came already true. I always thought that Peter Hale had to be in the last season. A last season without Peter just wouldn’t sit right with me and here we have him. Like he always was amazing, idiot and cares mostly about himself but a little bit for Stiles and even a little more for his daugther – i still want to know why Talia took that memory from him and why she send Malia to live with a normal family instead of a pack that can protect and teach her.
The second thing is and i am sure that this will not happen… but it would be the best thing ever. So i wanted Deaton to be the big bad in the last season. Because really he is so creepy. The way he act like he knows nothing in the first two seasons. The way he reacted to Derek and the way he dealt with Derek don’t sit right with me. Why don’t tell him that he was the emissary of the Hale pack? Why don’t tell him the truth and the way he ‘protects’ Derek is a joke. Also he always just tells them as little as possible about everything. He has to hide something else and i really wish that it would be that way.

But what really gives me life this season is the Coach! He is back – sadly he still is not often on screen – and Melissa and Chris. I ship these two so much. Really the scenes they have together are amazing and my love for that pair grows every episode. Also so the Sheriff is free for the Coach.

Watching or not – spoilers

If you can do it than don’t watch it. Of course i will watch 6.2 and hope that everything will be better in the second part of the season if not i will watch with my best friend only season 5.2 and let it end there. She dislike Stydia as much as i and she is not a big fan of her anyway. Soo this is even worse for her. It is not that the whole season is bad. Actually the last episode was really good apart form the parts with Lydia and Stiles… Every scene with them were so unnessassary… the shoots of the Sheriff would have been enough. Because this scene was so great and emotional and Lydia kinda take very much from this scene. The Sheriff is shooting his wife – the wife he loves so much that he carried the rings years after her death. The only person he loved enough that actually could have taken the place of Stiles. He shoots her without hesitating because she is hurting his son. Without a second of thougths he decided for his son.

August 20

Stranger Things: Season 1

Hey Guys,

so i watched season 1 of ‘Stranger Things’ and i expected something great. I heart a lot about the serie like ‘best serie ever’, ‘the best in a long time’ and so on. Everyone how watched the serie was so excited about it and i don’t understand it. I don’t want to say that i don’t like the serie, i did in a way… and i will definitily watch season 2 when it will come. So let’s talk a little more about the serie. I try to tell not many spoilers. So you just get an insight in the serie.

Every good story…

What happends in the serie? We have a group of kids – four boys, who are outsider in school and became friends – one day one of the boy vanished. Also in an military facility goes something wrong. You need not to be a genius to know that everything is conacted. When the boy vanished a girl appears. Basically everyone tries to find the boy and the military tries to hush up everything. So everything very typically. In a way we have four main groups. Before i tell more about the groups i want to talk about the atmosphere. The whole serie is a little colorless. It is not blackwhite are something but it is a little grey everywhere. Also the serie is working with flashbacks. They are not many but still enough to be significant for the serie.

Group One: The kids

The three boys want of course search for their friend and found the little girl. They hide her and got involved deeper than they should. Like i said in the beginning the boys are outsider and the girl is a little special and not very talkative.The boys have to explain alot to her like what friends mean and things like that. What brings us a few really cute scenes between the kids. A lot of the scenes between them is about their friendship and how they deal with what happend to them. One thing that is like ever other serie just two kids seems to have parents. The parents of the other two were never seen and doesn’t seem very interessted in them and worried that them sneak out in the night or skip school…
The little girl is played by an amazing actress. Millie Bobby Brown does an amazing job. My mother doesn’t really like the serie but she is thinking that she did an awesome job.

Group Two: The Siblings

Two of the boys have older siblings. The one that hide the girl at home has a big sister, which best friend vanished too, and the boy that vanished had an older brother. Both are trying to find them their own way and at some point the decided to help each other out. They are the most ‘aggressive’ group. They are like ‘we want that shit be done’.

Group Three: Mother and the sheriff

They don’t go and make shit done. We have the mother of the boy that vanished, who tried to find him. She is a little crazy and unstable and truth be told she got on my nerves… she is a really bad mother, who tried really hard to be a good one. But the scenes with her really make want to scream. The Sheriff seems at first like the normal drunken sheriff ready with the shitty world but the moment he understand that the boy is really vanished and not just with his dad. He is working to find him really hard. He is actually a really good cop and sees the little things.
Winona Ryder (the mother of the missing boy) is making me want to scream (so totally also an amazing actoress at work), but i really enjoy David Harbour scenes who played the Sheriff. He is a person i just have to like and it doesn’t change the whole season. The feeling just grows more and more.

But the best person was totally Benny! You will totally understand me! Benny is just an amazing good person and i wish in our world would be so much more Benny Hammonds.

Watch it or not?

It is a dark serie with so much cute scenes and dealing with feelings, memories and of course a mystery. It doesn’t happen much surprising or really exciting things, but you just want to know what will happen to the kids – most of all the girl. But all the boys are really sweet and in away you just have to watch it until the end. So watch it or not?
If you like serie that are really good from story and character but don’t are really surprising and new than watch the serie. It is good. I will totally watch season two.

February 11

Shadowhunters: S01EP05

Hey Guys,

like some of you already know i started watching Shadowhunters. Normally i am all for reading the original and thinks like that. So just that everyone know i didn’t read the book or so the ‘very loved’ movie and i have no intention of doing any of it. The Story is not really what interesst me. It has potential to become something good.

Supernatural world

What do we have in this serie. We have another supernatural world with Werwolves, Vampires and Demons. I love the supernatural world and it is always good to watch such series. Right now the world seems a little to black and white for me. There are the Shadowhunters which are the good ones. We only get to know four… (and a really bad mother) that are trying to do the right think. The main villian seems to be also a shadowhunter. So the ground for a grey world is there. But the most demons, vampires, werwolves seems to be bad. I know that the friend of Izzy doesn’t seems so bad or Luke seems to be on Clarys side. But this is way to little but right now it feels like their are the exception and this would be really sad. I hope that this is just because they concentrate on other things. Because i want so much more characters like for example Magnus.

Parabatai

Jace is telling us so much about how deep and beautifull this bond is. But we know nothing really about it and truth be told i don’t see this deep bond. All i see is that Alec tries to do everything for Jace. That Alec tries to protect him. He doesn’t like Clary very much because she is cutting through that bond. Jace is doing nothing against it. He never listen to Alec, he always tells him to stop but always excepted him to help him, what Alec always does. In the first part of the episode i thought that maybe we know get to see how deep this bond is. The way he treated Alec was promising. Just accepting that he is the most important person in Alecs life. But then one simple mistake from Alec when he tried to protect Clary and Jace is forget that Alec has also feeling. Forgets that Alec would do anything for him. Even die protecting Clary. So no i don’t see that bond and i don’t understand what that bond should be. All i know is that i beginn to dislike Jace very much.

The Redhead

Clary is going on my nerves. The hair is totally distracting and i don’t will get used to it. The actress had a little problems in giving her enough emotions but right now i get used to the way she is playing her. But her character is so exhausting. The whole world is just turning around her. She is not thinking about anything. Her actings brings everyone in danger but she never think about it. She is Jace always bringing in situation where he as to choose her side against Alec and she should see that she is destroying something. But she doesn’t care. Because right now it seems like she is only interessted in herself.

Lightwoods

The reason i start to love the show is not the story or Jace and Clary. No it is because of the Lightwoods. Alec is just such a imperfect little puppy. How can you not love him. He has the best quotes and tries so hard to doesn’t show anyone what he feels. But he would do anything for Jace and Izzy. He is protective about her. You can see how much he cares for her. In this episode he is trying to make it a little easier for Izzy but their mother doesn’t let him. These two people are his whole world – and his little brother we don’t know yet. I just want to cuddle him and Izzy. Izzy wants to see his brother happy. It is really good to see these both interact.

Malec

Do i have to say anything about it? Magnus is awesome and the chemestry between him and Alec is amazing. I like that we got to see more of this relationship. Because we will see how a close up character as Alec gets open up by Magnus and it will be awesome. Can’t wait to see the next episode.

December 26

TVD: Season 6

Hey Guys,

why do i still watch the vampire diaries? Because i still love a few characters. This season was really weak in the story but it has one character that made it worth watching. I am not talking about Damon, Caroline or Alric. The only reason i still watched was Kai. But let’s talk about everything.

Damon and Bonnie

This is the best part so far. Bonnie and Damon becaming friends. I think they make it very good. How the begann to came near and met Kai. Sadly this friendship is like everyone else on this show for Damon. Damon is Damon again and fucks things up and than every is very very angry with him. Bonnie is no exception. But it is sweet to see Damon trying to save her. Elena is trying to make it about her again. But here is Damon not doing it for Elena he is doing for Bonnie.

Stefan and Caroline

This storyline is not my favorite.
Stefan is like a roller coster. I disliked him for almost 4 seasons. But sometimes he does things for Damon and i really love him for that. In season 5 i really learnt to like him and now it does something and i dislike him for that and than he does another and i like him for it. It’s starts with Stefan trying to forget everything and ignore Caroline who needs so badly a friend. But he is only thinking about himself. In away i understand him. But on the other hand i don’t understand why he just don’t tell anyone the truth? He makes Alric were is no.
Stefan was for me always about Damon.I know that he dispite everything he did to Damon and let him down and said to him, he loves him and knows who Damon really is and that why i love him and the relationship between. But sometimes Stefan seems to forget what he knows about Damon. Sometimes this okay, sometimes it is not…
To see Stefan totally lost without his brother.

So i hate were this storyline is going. Stefan is not ready tell her what feels and not even knows it for himself. Caroline is on the edge and because stefan isn’t telling what she wants to hear. She is turning it off. But she is so much Caroline even without the feelings.

Enzo

Enzo is a complex character, which care so much in so wrong ways. He always use violance to deal with feelings. When Stefan break Caroline he goes out and kills Stefans girlfriend.
I really love that we see that Enzo has no interesst in Caroline in that state of turned of feelings.

Alric

Bringing Alric back was the best idea ever. He is taking again the place of a dad for Jeremy and Elena and it is amazing how he try do deal with everything. How he is trying to get over the losses they again had to survive. The hurt in is eyes when Elena is talking about Damon after he let forget… it is amazing and breaks everytime. But it seems that anyone forgetts who Damon is. Alric got used by Damon to save Bonnie and he is so angry with him. In one way i really understand it. Damon used him to ‘betray’ his girlfriend. On the other hand he knows Damon and what he will do to save people he loves and that his girlfriend is not part of it.
It is sad that they totally seem to forget the friendship between Alric and Damon. Alric wants to marry and is becaming a father but see not one scene were he is telling something to Damon about it. Damon is losing Liz and nobody seems to remember what that means. I hate that Alric isn’t there in this time for him.

October 17

TW: Season 1

Hey Guys,
after this season of Teen Wolf i needed to rewatch it so deeply. I learnt to love all this characters. When i started i couldn’t stand Scott and Allison and now i love them. So i thought when i rewatch it i would love them now too, like i did with Lydia, but it didn’t happen. I still want to hit Scott the whole time and every scene with them toegether got still on my nerves. But I see the character developement that started here. I wanted to write about the season but when i look at the notes i took, than this will be a massive Jackson and Derek article. I love them so much. I am overflowing with Jydia feelings, Stilinski feelings and Derek feelings… I don’t even understand how i could survive the season because… this broke my heart so many times… when i think what will still come… my poor little babies. I just want to protect them.
– I just saw how much i wrote and thing i have to make Overview:
1)The ‘epic’ love story (Allison and Scott)
2)Things you should think about (Derek) + the five following points
3)My beloved asshole (Jackson) + the seven following points
4)The Argents (Victoria, Chris and Kate)
5)You will play (Coach Finstock)
6)But we close the front door (Stiles) + the two following points

Where do we start? Let’s start with Allison and Scott. It is the thing i have to say less than to the others.

The ‘epic’ love story

I think i am to old for actually liking the love story and these characters. Scott is such a typical teenager… i can’t really understand him. He is form the first moment head over heals into Allison. I don’t think it is love in the first season. Really they now each other two weeks… okay their were three fullmoons… three month, but they are like i will die with each other. No you won’t. You will survive and the life will go on. And everything around them is so much more interessting. But here starts actually what will be their character developement that makes them to really interessting and lovly characters. Scott beginn to develope a hero complex and believe that he need to save everyone, but is totally judgy against Derek. He did a few things… but this will be part of the Derek theme.
Allison on the other hand starts to crave power, she wants to feel powerful, strong and doesn’t want to need help. She doesn’t understand yet that help is actually nothing bad or weak.

Why go out with a stalker?

Scott is not really a stalker… but really he gave her a pen without her even get her things out. Creepy and than he knows about the talk with Jackson and Lydia, and he wasn’t even close so he could have heart it… i would never ever said yes. I would find him creepy and i think she did too. So i really don’t understand why she said yes and i will never get it.

Things you should think about

The first time my heart hurts was when Derek first met Stiles and Scott. Because when he goes Stiles tells Scott that this was Derek Hale and that his family burnt in that house. Derek can hear him. I never thought about it before. But he actually can hear Stiles say that. This whole city is a reminder of everything he lost and he really lost everything here. He has no family left. He has nobody left.
Derek Hale is so broken and i don’t get why so many people hate on him. Because did you just for one second thought about his feelings? He fall in love with a girl, a girl that burnt his whole family alive. Derek is giving himself the fault for it. Laura the one that survived never get the real story out of him. He never spoke about what happend to him. He never spoke to anyone how Kate manipulated him so she could kill his family. She abused him and he never talk about it. He couldn’t because he was afraid of Laura hating him, afraid of losing her, maybe even afraid that Laura will forgive him. Because he needs to feel guilty. The emotion that keeps his wolf in check is anger. Anger about himself for falling for her. He can’t lose this guilt and every day of that six years the guilt cuts deeper into him.
When Derek found Laura in pieces, he broke again. And he has nobody. The only one he has and can talk to is a uncle that is in a coma. His life is a living hell at that point and than there are these stupid two teenager that makes is life even worse. Scott and Stiles accuse him of killing his own sister. But he is still helping Scott when ever he can. He makes sure that Allison is save. He saves Scott so many time from himself.
Derek is so much in need of holding everything together and close to him. He can’t let anyone see how it looks in him. That is one reason he is actually closing a door of the shell of a house to get the feeling of privacy. He can’t open up to Scott. Not just because Scott makes an idiot out of himself. Because if someone gets close, Derek can lose him.

Asking for help

I remember watching the serie with friends and someone ask why he doesn’t just ask for help. Why doesn’t he ask for help. Because he doesn’t believe in people anymore. He lost his fate in them. He doesn’t believe anyone would actually want to help him and to be honest. He needs to discuss with Scott before he is ready to help. Actually i think they wouldn’t helping him just for helping him. Scotts helping him because he actually needs him. This is so sad. Because in the end Derek is right. What that be happen in season 3 than Scott would had helped without a single thought, but right there he doesn’t care.
When ever Derek needs something he needs to discuss with Scott. So he tries to show Scott what the Argents do. He showed him Peter. He talks about what had happend to them and it pains him. You can see the pain in his eyes. Scott is actually saying ‘they had a reason’. I will never be over this. Being a werwolf is no reason and even if it were true and every werewolf were bad than this wouldn’t be a reason to burn people alive. In this house were 11 people. There can never be a legit reason to do this. If i were Derek i would actually hit him and let him alone deal with this.

We are brothers now

This hasn’t just a phrase. This is what Derek really feels. Scott is framing him for the murder of all that people and again Scott is an asshole. Because of course it matters even if he is dead. Laura was his sister. It matters alot. You don’t do that to people. You just don’t. But Derek is forgiving them and helping them again. Because he actually cares.
When he choose Peters side (we are talking about that later), he got the order to kill Jackson. You see him struggle. He doesn’t want to do it, but he was ready to do it. But when Scott came everything changed and nobody can tell me that he would have killed him. When he actually in a heartbeat protect him, is trying to save him and turning himself in to Kates arms – the person that tortures him with only her existince. She is breaking all the wounds open again. He did it for Scott. Because he cares. You see it also when Peter goes the first time after Scott. He wanted to stop Peter. You actually seeing him moving a little forward. Everything that Derek has left is revenge and protecting Scott. But Scott doesn’t want that protection.

His talks about people

He have this amazing talks. He is telling Jackson that nobody is caring about him. He is not completely right. Because there are to people really caring about Jackson but that is not the point. The point is that nobody cares about Derek. Derek says that nobody cares that he drive an expanisive car – like he did, has perfect hear – like he, and is captain of the lacross team… he is actually talking about himself. He is the one that has nobody that cares about him. He is the one that is lonley.
Than he talks about Allison and Scotts stupid teenager crush. This actaully him talking about himself. Because he wished someone had said this to him. Because he wished someone would have know about Kate and stopped him. He is screaming at himself for being so blind to fall for her. He sees himself in Scott an he just saw the repeat of the history (and in season 2 we see something that isn’t so much different form it).

Sterek

There isn’t much to say about it yet. Because they haven’t so much scenes together. But they are actually working together and i remember that so many people were angry about the way Derek treated Stiles. I know this was discussed many times so i actually just say that everyone that judge Derek on that should remember that he got abused by Kate and here is Stiles using Dereks body to get what he wants. Just saying…

Derek is the bad guy?!

Here is the part i will never ever understand. How can anyone think he is the bad guy? He chooses for a really short time to be on Peters side. Peter is his uncle. The only remaining family he has. He needs to believe that Peter didn’t killed Laura on purpose. Because Derek needs Peter. He needs someone how is there for him. He doesn’t have the strenght to go through all this alone. Scott and Stiles don’t care about him. Peter does or did. He needs his only remaining family. He wants to believe him, because if Peter is lying he lose everything again. He is again alone. Loneliness is nothing Derek can handle. But he never really did anything bad and after he has no choice but to realizing that Peter lied, he choose to help Scott. Yes he killed Peter but really you will hold that against him? He doesn’t kill Peter to became an alpha. He was never interessted in that. He wanted revenge for Laura – for is sisters. And just a side effect he doesn’t let a 16 year old boy kill someone… yeah you are right that is a really bad person…

My beloved asshole

The most important thing about me is, that yes Stiles is my favorite character and nobody should touch Derek. But the character i am the most protective of is Jackson asshole Whittemore. My little baby. What ever you say about him i will fight for him forever. I don’t know why, but if someone says something about him, i am like do you touch my little baby. I know that many people love and miss Jackson like i do. But there are also really many people that really dislike him. You can do this, but never ever says that there isn’t anything beneath the asshole wall. He is one of the best and deepest characters on the show. Lydia will be a little short in this article. I don’t dislike her. Actually Lydia is my favorite female character on the show. But she isn’t perfect and really that is what i love about her. She is an asshole, sometimes a little evil, manupulating, a fighter, a very strong human, that wants to help and save people, is emontional and lost way to much in her short life. She is amazing. But my Jackson is too. And i really hate that people always make him down for treated Lydia badly, when it is not true – not totally.

Abuse Relationship?

Everyone is talking about an abuse relationship that Lydia and Jackson have. I have to say i never said anything against it because in my memories it was like Jackson treated her bad. But i have to correct myself and everyone how tell something different should rewatch season 1. Jackson didn’t once scream at her. Not once he mistreaded her when they were in relationship. All that things are coming but they are when they are not longer together. Actually it starts when Jackson got bitten and became a kanima so most of it is like Scott being violent against Stiles – the change to something different, something he can’t controll.
But i actually think that the relationship was… abuse… is not the right word… i will go with unhealty. Because Lydia was the one that actually made Jackson feel bad most the time. Please don’t just hate me for this. Read what i have to say and than you can write me anytime and discuss this with me. So let’s start.

At pike performens

The first time i saw a really problematic thing in their relationship was when Jackson got hurt by Scott. Jackson has to go to the hospital and got painkillers from the medic. I don’t think he would have played the game a few days later. But Lydia pressured him into taking painkillers and play the game. She was the one that made sure that he will not sit on the bench. Jackson can’t be not playing and not making points, because he is Lydias boyfriend. When the Coach ask him if he would feel it when he would hit the shoulder, Jackson answered maybe. This wasn’t he beining dump or something. That is him telling the truth. He doesn’t know because he had so much painkillers intus that he doesn’t feel anything. This is a really problematic behavior from Lydia.

At the edge

Jackson is at the edge this season, what is really sad when you think what will happen in season two to him. The situation around him gets worse. He is falling deeper into black hole. He is feeling like losing everything. Everytime Scott is scoring, he is losing something. Than there are little things like a destroyed locker or bigger things like Derek giving him the scretches. Because of them Jackson actually had big sleepproblems and nightmares of a fire or being attack by a werwolf. Lydia gets a shock just for seeing Peter.
We need to understand Jacksons character. Jackson is not dump and please stop saying otherwise. He is not a genius like Lydia but he is top of the class, because he can’t do anything else. He needs to be the best. He needs to please someone, he never met. What means that he can’t stop, because he doesn’t know if it is really good enough. Maybe he must try harder, be better otherwise he is just a disapointment. He works really hard for all he had. Than there is Scott coming and he gets everything without even trying really hard. He is perfect at Lacross, got a cute girlfriend, which brings him like automatically in the ‘high society’, he got team captain. Jackson can just look like Scott got everything, JACKSON had worked for. All that with cheating. Because Jackson is right. Scott is cheating he is using his werwolf powers. Lydia is focusing the unhealty jealousy with firing Scott on by training, or actually making out with him, or flirting with him before Jacksons eyes (The part with Jackson and Allison will come later).

Sucking for his benefits

Lydia is playing dump, so Jackson looks better. What is not even really nessassary. But she did it anyway. She is playing that she is bad at bowling. But i never thought that it was really about making him look better. I think Jackson like competion on bowling. But when Jackson helped her, he was feeling good. He liked being close to her like that. It was like their flirting when everyone is around. But we talk later more about this. Now it goes about Lydia standing up and making the shoot. It is nothing wrong with it and i am actually with Allison on that. That she should stop sucking for Jacksons benefit. But what is the bad think about it, is what she says and how she says it. Jackson is sitting close beneath her. He looked a little surprised that Lydia made a Strike. But i don’t think that he really believe she was bad. He was surprised – my interpretation- that she actually showed it. Please everyone how hate Jackson look at his face the moment Lydia said ‘that she did alot of sucking for his benefits’. She is saying it so Jackson can hear. At that point she want that Jackson feels bad and he does. What she said hurt him. Sometimes you say think that hurt people it happens but Lydia did it on that point on purpose. I am not saying Jackson is perfect. He has alot of flaws too.

Anything real about them?

So yeah i ship Jydia and everything i told you until now are reason for them being never ever together again. But here it is, what i see. I see real feelings. When we first saw them together like they act. They love each other. They like to be close and the little touches between them. We see it also when they are bowling how they sit together, play together. He is never making fun of her for playing ‘bad’ – like for example he did with Scott. He just loves to be near her and she loves to be near him. I think the problem with these two is that, Jackson had that need to be better and be unhealty ambitious. She is a genius and she knows it. Of course she does things for it, but she doesn’t need to work so hard for it as Jackson – what doesn’t mean that she doesn’t work so hard. A good friend of me would have written A’s without learning but she learnt weeks before the test. I think Lydia is such a type, just to be sure it will be a A. She doesn’t show what a genius she is, so Jackson doesn’t feel the need to be better than her. She is trying to actually make him feel better. He forgets that she is actually doing this for him. They are doing this and somehow they lost themself in the roles they are playing and forgot what the others feel for them. Lydia always seems to feel the need to make Jackson jealous. Like she needs to see him jealous so she can be sure he still cares about her. And Jackson actually things that Lydia doesn’t real care about him. All that got stronger when Jackson loses controll about his life, because Scott is taking his part.

The evidence that they actually love each other is the ball. Lydia is going out to search Jackson. Because she knows that he is not okay. She needs to make sure he will be okay. She needs to find him. Jackson is really worried about Lydia. He is bringing her into hospitel and when you see how he looks at her than it breaks your heart. Because he needs to know that she will be okay… This is not even about binging her into the hospital. It is that he needs to make sure she is okay. He needs to see her.

The feelings were real but they lost. That is why i think that when they actually grow to the person they want to be. When Jackson learns to trust people with his feeling and that he can depent on them without being weak or that he doesn’t need to be the best. When Lydia learns to place herself first, doesn’t hide who she is, she embrass her power and her genius, she understands that she doesn’t help be pretending to be someone else and she stop fearing that she will be left alone. Than these two will be a good combination. They will rock everyone. Jydia forever.

I am not a bad person

The most important thing about him is that he is not a bad person. He never did something to really harm anyone. Yes he make fun of Scott but this is his way of coping with Scott being better than him. He makes constantly bad decisions and he knows it. He doesn’t feel confortable enough to talk with his best friend or girlfriend. But the real point is, when the were captured in the school and Scott ask how many people can ride in his car. Jackson says ‘five’. Because he will not let anyone there. Allison is like three are way to much and she is in a normal situation right. Jackson would never let Scott into his car but right know it is about get out there alive and he will pack everyone in his car, when they can made it to it.
The second one is he is telling the hunters about Scott, but he also tells Stiles so he can react. When Stiles is going after Peter, Jackson is coming with him without question. He is afraid but he wants to help. Actually i am really sad about the missed oppurtunity of a Jackson and Stiles love-hate friendship.

Jacksons solution

Why is it so important to be a werwolf for Jackson? The answer is easy. When he is stronger than humans, faster than humans, than he is better than all the other. Than he doesn’t have to try so hard anymore to be good enough. Because he will just be better than anything. It is his solution for getting peace. He is totally wrong and i think that someday will have to search competition between werwolves. The bite will not give him peace, not like Jackson hoped for because he doesn’t really understand yet that he needs to change his way of seeing things to get peace. But he is not ready. So he need that bite, that promise him peace.

The Argents

I really dislike Victoria the way she acts is so wrong. She seems like always wearing a mask. Her smile feels always wrong. The way she treated Allison was… way over board and i just really dislike her. Chris on the other hand was a little creepy in the first season. He really loves his daugther and want to protect her (Victoria loves her too…). I hate how he talks to Derek, but i actually like how he lives by this code. That he really believes in it. So much that he was ready to go after Kate. That he actually understands that what Kate did even when they were werwolves was wrong.
I hate Kate with all my heart. The actress did an amazing work. She playes her so good that you actually feel that she is the devil, that she loves to kill and torture but she is still human and has feelings. She actually loves Allison pretty much and i think that she would’ve done anything for her. She loved her like a little sister and she wanted to teach her how she keep herself save. It didn’t make her more sympatic because she is just evil but it shows that the show knows that all the bad people are just human like we are. They have feelings too.

You will play

Before we came to my favorite person we have to talk about a really important person on the show: The Coach. He is so much fun and in the first season he looked like the worst teacher ever. I think the Coach really loved his job and his students. But i think that he gots dispointed by them, by the parents, by the world. This disapointment he let out on the kids. Like the time when he ask Scott to summeries the reading and Scott can’t answer. The Coach got like please summeries anything but not even that can you do. This is way over the top, but you see that he is tired of the students don’t to the homework or listen to what he says.
Also a reason why i believe this is the way he talks about Stiles. Stiles is one of the difficults students. But the Coach know that he is a great kid and intellegent…

But we close the front door

When i write my whole opinion about Stiles in here. I think you need alot more time to read all that stuff i am writting. But i will try to make it short. Stiles is my favorite character and the one that is maybe the most problematic one. Stiles has two/three people in his life he would do anything for and right now Lydia isn’t one of them. These people are his father, Scott and Melissa. Melissa is like a second mam for him – sadly we doesn’t see much of this dynamic in this season but we will later. The problematic thing about Stiles is that he actually is not a good person. He doesn’t have a high morality. His moral compass is Scott. He is defining himself about Scotts ways of seeing things. He doesn’t do things because he doesn’t want to disapoint Scott or his father. He is ready to do anything to keep this three people alife. The most important things is not his own safety it is his fathers safety. That is why he always assumes the worst when he saw on a fullmoon a corpse…
Stiles doesn’t really believe in law are moral…that is why he actually choose to humaniated Scott with for example the water from the bowl. Or how he uses violance to pay back Scott…

Relationships can break

We started at a point were Stiles can’t lie. His father always gets when something isn’t right. But with Scott becoming a werwolf, Stiles is hiding more and more from his father. You see how close they are and how important for example that first lacross game for Stiles is, because his father is their to see HIM not the lacross game. He is proud of Stiles but Stiles sacrifice it for Scott. That are the first cuts in the relationship of them. Really clear gets it when the Sheriff is drunk and says that he miss talking to Stiles. That they never seems to have time for each other. Sadly these growing apart is just the start.

The Bite

The Bite is a thing that tells us a lot of Stiles. Because he is feeling left behind. Scott is now first line, he is stronger, faster and everything, he has a cute girlfriends and he still have just this crush over Lydia (if someone wants my opinion over Stydia write me). He beginns to feel like the sidekick not like they are on the same high. This is eating at him. When Peter offered him the bite, Stiles says nothing. He is fighting with himself. When he is actually saying no. Peter is telling us that he lied. Stiles wanted that bite because he sees it like Jackson. Maybe it destroyed Scotts life but it doesn’t have to be bad. He wants to be eye to eye with Scott, he doesn’t want to left behind. So why is he saying no. I think their are two reason the first is his father. When he gets the bite it doesn’t mean that he survive it. The bite means you became a werwolf or you die. This is something he can’t do this father. He knows his father will break when something happend to Stiles.
The second one is Scotts opinion. He doesn’t want the bite because he knows Scott wouldn’t be approve of it. Scott thing the bite is a curse and he would never understand why Stiles did it. Stiles thinks he would disapoint Scott.

Deaton and dates

What I never understand is why Deaton isn’t telling them the truth? He should take care of Derek. He did a really bad job at that. This is the only really stupid thing that will never go into my head.

So six years ago was the fire and 11 people were in the house that burnt down inclusive Peter. So for Derek died ten people in that fire. The season plays in 2011 and Kate is 28. So six years ago she 22 years. Derek is born on in 88. So he is 22-23.
I will try to get all the dates because so many people say that it doesn’t make sense. We will see.

September 5

Dark Angel: Season 1

Hey Guys,
i watched the second season of Dark Angel before i even thought on watching the first. When i started to watch the serie ages ago i stopped watching it after a while. But i loved the second season from the first moment. But now i started to watch the first season again.

Max

Max is the biggest problem for me in this serie. I don’t like her very much. This doesn’t change in season two. But in season two are so many other great characters and an amazing story that i forget about it. Max is a really judging character. She is strong and can do everything. Sometimes she believes she is unbreakable. She always falls down when she things it and get back in reality. She is not a Mary-Sue or something like that. She is just not sympathic. When she spend time with Logan it got better because she becames human. When it started she doesn’t cared about many things. But when she get involved she got really involved. She is a good person and she has alot of character grow in the season but still… i don’t like her…but she got more sympatic every episode, maybe i made her in my memorie more worse than she was – we will see in the second season.

Logan

Logan is sweet and good man. But so idiotic…he is a real man that has problems with Max helping and protecting him. I got that it is hard to lose the abilty to walk. I can’t even imagion what it is like, but i know that it is dumb to push the people away of it. So both of them are so human that you want to hit them and hold them in your arms and tell them that everything will be okay.
I want them to be together and i know that they will be but they going one step forward and two back. I hate that he only think about get in a relationship with her when he can move his legs…

The Story

There is not really a maintheme. Yes she is from menticore. But it is just the background. Every episode is a story for his own. In the second season the maintheme is more constant than the in the first epiosde.

August 25

TW: S05x10

Hey Guys,
that was it- the midseason finale of Teen Wolf. It played with my feelings and made my heart break and it was just too much… too perfect… yes i am one how is actually a fan of this finale. Even when i am alone with this opinion. So let’s start.

The Bite

This episode Scott did make everything right. I don’t say this often, because yes i like Scott but point had is mistakes more than other because i always have the feeling Scott is allowed to do mistakes that others don’t. But this time he is just right. He decided to don’t bite Hayden and he is right with it. We know that werwolfs bite is better when you are young, strong and healty. Hayden was young but in her condition he was not strong. She was already fighting for her life. The bite kills you or make you a werwolf, but that weaker your body is so higher is the posibilty to die. Yes! Hayden was dying that is why the bite couldn’t save her. Her body was already weak. When Liam got biten is body of healty and it was instinct. Many people say that she died anyway but Scott tried to save her. If he had biten her. She would be dead 100%. But he didn’t bite her so they had a chance to save her. It was the only chance she had and i am sure she understood that.

Don’t think straight

You can’t blame Liam either. Theo was giving him that thought that he could save Hayden with the bite. The supermoon was and he was despretted to save her. He lost controll. He had to do everything he could to save her, so he can survive this. He need to fight Scott. It was wrong and stupid and he will see that sometime… For him it was Scott giving Hayden up, like Scott used her for the trap. He was totally losing is crap and yeah i think he would have killed Scott. But Mason came throught to him. He could reach him and he was the only one who could do this. Mason is amazing. He never asks, he jsut does everything that needs to be done.

Breaking up?

I didn’t saw them breaking up. They have a problem with the comunication, but that they had before. Their first fight was because Stiles didn’t told her the truth. This time Stiles needed someone to talk. You can blame Malia for not talking to him, when she knew. But she tried. Do you remember that she ask Stiles a few times, what happend and if everything is okay? Stiles choose to stay silent. Maybe he needed her to just say it out loud that she knew. But she doesn’t know him very long. She gave him the oppurtunity to talk and he decided not to. Malia also does say that she don’t care for him. She just says that it doesn’t change anything for her. She knows what he is feeling and just wanted him to know that she still sees him the same way.
The are both at fault for their relationship on the edge. Because Stiles choose to be silent about what was going on with him and Malia choose the same. They both decided to do this alone. They are both in the same way at a fault for this relationship troubles. They didn’t break up, they just have alot of problems to work through.

Giving up Roscoe

I really hope we will have him back. Roscoe is a symbole for Scott and Stiles friendship. Everytime the car broke down, Stiles uses ducktape to repair it. Scott and Stiles treated her friendship like that too. They need to sit down and repair their friendship from the bottom and i hope they realize that and that he will do the same with the jeep. I love how Malia just cut to the core of the problem with just one question and the answer is that just so human. It does have to be a supernatural crises. This happens in real life this is why friendships break…this is the reason we lost them on our way.
The best thing about the finale is that it doesn’t have a fast solution for this break up. I wanted them to go slow on that. I mean they still care for each other. Stiles would totally go for Scott, if he hadn’t to safe his father. This decision is a decision he would do everytime. Because his father is only human… and he can’t lose him.

The pack he wants

The pack Theo wants doesn’t exist. Lydia would never ever go against Scott. I think everyone knows that. She figured out what Parrish is and her character development is amazing just remember were we started.
Also people Void!Stiles isn’t back. This was just our Stiles how he was before the nogitsume was in him. Theo hurt the most precious people in his life his father and Scott. Yes he is angry because he hurt them. Theo hurt his family… that is not void that is something like a ‘john maclane’-mood. Nobody goes against my family. If Theo would do this to my best friend, i would go after him.
When Braeden came i hoped for Derek… don’t hide Derek. He proablely wasn’t with Braeden because he was already on the way to Stiles. So we see him in january help Stiles drive his father into the hospitel. Yeah… that woud be the reason…

Do i have forgotten something? If you want to talk about the final just write me.

August 19

TW: S05x09

Hey Guys,
this episode of Teen Wolf showed us how deep Scott already fall. I want to talk about a few things. But first i want to say that i really like Scott. All things that i say about him, is not that i want him to make a bad person. He is a good on and he is human and makes mistakes. I am just tiered of Scotts mistakes being okay because he is younger than Derek and Dereks mistakes aren’t.

How is the worst Alpha

I thought about it alot. Because someone ask if everyone forgot what a shitty alpha Derek was and me imidetly reaction was ‘No, but Scott is worse’. That he is worse is my opinion but it is a fact that he is a bad alpha. That he is a worse alpha than Derek for me has to do with one fact. But lets start with Derek being the alpha. To talk about that we need to know that Derek is broken. When Derek came back to Beacon Hill he was broken and than he found his sister dead. The season one were for Derek the worst days ever. He lost his whole family in a fire but he had always Laura, he had always his alpha. But when he came to Beacon Hill. He had nothing. He was a omega. With nothing more to loose. That is why he tired to make Scott his brother. He did it in such a bad way. But he just doesn’t know how to handle this situation. Scott and Stiles doesn’t make it better with accusing him of the murder of his own sister. He have everyone against him and he does nothing against it. Why? Because he is feeling guilty. It is his fault his family died, it is his fault Laura died and it is his fault that Scott got bitten. The hunters came to him and everytime i see this scene i hate Chris Argent with all my heart. It is just that scene. After that i beginn to love him but this… he came to Derek and talks about his dead family in away… and he knows that Derek thinks that the Argent were involved.
So Derek is in a really shitty situation and the situation got worse because Scott choose to fall in love with Allison. Derek handled everything in this situation wrong. But in the end he just wanted to help Scott. Because he loved once an Argent and she burnt his house and family down. He want that Scott doesn’t have to experience that.
He never brought Stiles in danger with the intentation. He always tried to hold Stiles out of it. But he is forced to work with Stiles because Scott doesn’t work with him. All he cares about is Allison at that time. So he works with Stiles because he is willing to do it. When Stiles got in danger because of Derek he tried to protect him. He doesn’t know that Peter was the alpha. His intention was never to bring Stiles in danger. Not like Scott did with Mason.
Just for one moment stop and think that the only member of your family wakes from a coma and killed your sister to became an alpha so he can take revenge for what happend to him. Peter is the only one he has left. So when he said that it was a mistake that he killed Laura. Derek has to believe it. Peter is his uncle. He knows him his whole life and Derek is broken. He needs someone to stand with him. Scott doesn’t want to so he needs to believe in Peter. So again he makes shitty decision but he makes them to not break completely. When Scott tells him the truth Derek is ready to kill his uncle and does it. So he became a shitty alpha. Everyone was so angry at him that he doesn’t let a teenager kill… that was actually one of the best decisions Derek made this season.

So now we look at Scott. Just to be clear that this is not the reason Scott is a worse alpha. Because he doesn’t have an easy life either. He had a really shitty father, which was an alcohlic and left his family. But he is not broken. When all this starts he had a really good life with to people that are like a father to him, a loving mother and a best friend that will do everything for him. Scott choose the first two episode to go the easy way and blame Derek for everything but this is not true. The first season was totally Peters fault and the second season was also Scotts fault. Don’t get me wrong. He doesn’t have a fault for the Kanima. But neither has Derek. He doesn’t know Kanima was even really. When Scott had bitten Jackson he would also became a Kanima. This is Jacksons ‘fault’. Fault is of course the wrong word. It is his character, his doubts, his search for who he is that makes him a Kanima.

Derek doesn’t handle his new with much care. It is not that he don’t care about them. He actually did, because he wants them to be his family. But he is afraid of losing them again. That is why he is trying to teach him to fight. He wants them to survive. He can’t let them in. Because he is way to broken. He doesn’t trust easily and everytime he wants to he got it worse. Derek cared about the people in Beacon Hill he did and felt guilty for every death. That is why gots a even shittier alpha than before. Because he needs to fix it. He doesn’t want anyone else to die that is why he choose to kill the kanima. The way he did it and the way he choose tell it Scott were so wrong. But was he wrong? If you look from the morality than yes he was and i am a person that things that their are other ways, better ways, that killing is never a solution. But when they did it Dereks way many people would have survived. Scott is here on the ‘right’ way. He wants to save everyone even Jackson. Is he right? Yes he is and that makes Scott a really good person. But because of that way people died. I don’t want to say it is Scotts fault. Because it wasn’t Scotts fault as much it wasn’t Dereks fault. But the decision he made to save Jackson had a price. He never sees that.

So Derek want to family but failed to be for his pack a family. He was just a creepy teacher that threaten them badly. But he doesn’t just bite them. He gave them a choice and he told them before that their will be hunters. He actually told them what it means. So he was a creepy alpha but never made them do anything they doesn’t want to do.
Scott on the other hand did this. In the end of season two he abused Derek. He did. He used Dereks body against his will to get Gerald the bite. That is abuse. This was one of the most shitty decision Scott did. This can not be excused by anything. So he is ready to kill Gerald but by him it is not so bad like when Derek would have done it. What did Scott do after that? Nothing. Okay, yeah Erica and Boyd were not his pack. So we will excuse this.
Derek never stoped searching for them. When he found them he was willing to sacrifice himself so they will survive. Yes he was a creepy alpha again when he wanted Issac save. He know Issac would never leave him, if he asked him to. So he drove him away with througing the glas at him. It was a mistake and this can’t be really excused to do this to a traumatic kid that was abused before. But he did it to bring him to safety.
So Scott uses violance against Issac. That wasn’t creepy writting. Because Scott did it before. I will rewatch the seasons and than i can tell you when he actually was that way before. But everyone seems to forget that he did that to Issac.

So now we talk about Scott and his decisions as an alpha. He is a good person. I will never hear anything else. But when Aiden and Ethan wanted into the pack. Scott would let them without even thinking about the feelings of Issac. If he wants to forgive them fine. But the murdered Boyd and he can let them into his pack. After that he decided to join Decuilion. I loved him for that creppy decision because he did for the right reasons. But after that he is not such a bad alpha. He actually did it very well. For someone that doesn’t know much. That he bite Liam without his consent, doesn’t count because he wanted to save Liam. (But just as a fact Derek bite four people with their consent and Scott one without…)
In season five Scott begann to fail as an alpha. It starts with Kira. Something was really wrong with Kira. She lost control over her power. Scott watched her getting worse and worse without talking to her. That is not just a creppy alpha decision it is also a creppy boyfriend decision. Instead of talking to her and maybe finding out what is wrong with her, he choose not to trust her anymore. Of course he loved her and wanted her save but this wasn’t keeping her save this was making it worse.
I don’t want to talk about Malia because this wasn’t just Scott. When Malia say the dread doctors… i am pretty sure that neither Scott nor Stiles really believed her. How they look at each other and how Malia changed to say the man in the mask… it hurts me to say that Stiles as much as fault as Scott. Because nobody of them was really their for her after she saw Tracy murdered before her eyes.
Than we talk about his decision to make Hayden the bait. This was a Derek decision. Scott begann to break his own believings. He decided that he can’t save everyone. So maybe someone most die to get them in a better position. Of course he doesn’t wanted Hayden to die and he would have protect her. But her safety wasn’t his priority.
After that he take a ‘human’ into the hideout of the dread doctor, who even Malia couldn’t fight. Just because nothing happend doesn’t make it a good decision. It was a bad decision.
So the worst decision and the dumpest, because really Scott how blind are you, is trusting Theo. Than again he did a bad decision for the pack and an even worse as a best friend. He turned his back on Stiles. Maybe he doesn’t even realized it, i doesn’t know – can tell you this next episode- but he through Stiles in that moment out of the pack. No more Malia, no more Lydia. The pack is at his worst point ever and Scott let the one go that would do anything for him and this pack. Even worse is that Stiles bagged him to help him, but Scott turned his back on him. He failed Stiles as a best friend.

So yeah they are both bad alphas. But the big different is: Derek tried so hard to be a good alpha and Scott tried so hard to be good man. He is trying to make the right choice but he never realize that being a good guy not meant that he is a good alpha. He cares about his pack but he never really tried to be a good alpha, he tried to be a good man…that is why Scott is a worse alpha.

Why many people want Derek back and believe that nothing like that would happen if he would be there is also easy. Derek would have not trust Theo. He would have trust Stiles. He always trusted them more than anyone else. He would never fall for Theo…he would be on Stiles side.

Another good guy

Parrish is the only thing left to talk about. Lydia and he are really sweet. She is telling him that he is the one that took the bodies. They found the Nemeton and the bodies. What does Parrish with that knowledge. Lydia can tell him as much as she wants that maybe his helping to cover up the supernatural and that he is a good guy. But he doesn’t care he imprision himself. So he isn’t any danger to anyone. I don’t understand why people are angry at the Sheriff for respecting Parrish wish? Parrish is not wrong the didn’t know would he did and what the reason for it is. It could be dangerous. Nobody believes that Parrish is a bad guy. I think that the sheriff know sees him as even a better cop than before.