September 26

Goodbye Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. (this contains spoilers for season 3)

Hey Guys,

it hurts me to actually say this, but i am done with Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. and will not watch the fourth season. I loved the serie from the beginning and my love only grew stronger. We had 2 1/2 amazing seasons. I know what many of you will think now. Just because they killed Ward…
But Wards death – even when this death made me cry the most and heartbroken – was not the reason for this. I found the idea of a creature like Hive in a head like Ward interessting and in away they were very simular. I know why people think the end of Hive wasn’t strong enough… that he turned in the background and that Lincolns death would be more important. I don’t say you are not right. I love Lincoln but later to that – now i want to talk about Ward. My lovely Ward. The end was for me in away perfect because we saw Hive understanding something. He understood that the connection he created wasn’t a real connection. He understood that the real connection was what Lincoln shared with the humans. We saw Hive tell Lincoln that he just wanted to make the world a better place and yes look at the world. The world is a terrible place. There is war and death and people killing each other. We hate on each other for being different. He wanted to change this. He wanted the world a better place. He did it the wrong way. He did everything wrong for this to happen. But he didn’t knew better. He just didn’t knew better. Ward wanted to make up with his team. He tried to earn back this family but he did it in the wrong way. In all the wrong ways but he didn’t knew better.
Ward and Hive got created be other people. They got tortured and manipulated and were very lonley. All they wanted was a connection, a family, not being alone. Ward and Hive were so much alike. This end showed it to me how simular they were and it made me so sad… because Lincoln understood that Hive wanted to make it better… and i just think all the time what would have happend if Hive or Ward really had someone who cared enough about them and to show him how love function, how relationships work. They both could have made the world a better place.
And that is the reason i watched the show… it is one of the reason.

I watched S.H.I.E.L.D. because i love this organisation. They are so right and so wrong at the same time. They want the right things and always do it the wrong way. They want peace and protection but using the new power to create weapons. They have people like Black Widow and Hawkeye working for them – they are for the kill. Every freaking S.H.I.E.L.D. agent has blood on his hands. This organisation is not good and it is not bad either. This is totally a gray area and every step can kipp the balance in one direction. That was the good thing about the serie. It always showed us that they are not the good ones. They showed us hope. I still remember Wards face when he realized that he just had saved Mike. That he could actually do more than killing. We saw the characters grow… we saw them falling. We saw them failing and winning.

The serie doesn’t make often the things i wanted to see but the character developement was always logic… and i could live with it. I actually loved the serie more for making me hate Coulson. And really in the midseason final of season three i really hated him. He became a person i couldn’t like anymore. A person that gave the victim back to his abuser, a person that wanted to delete their memories to make them better… he just got the director of S.H.I.E.L.D.
All characters were so human… they had their flaws not to little… it was amazing to watch them deal with everything. I loved to hate them, i loved to love them. I cried for them and i screamed for them, i discussed about them.
Nothing can take that from me. The 2 1/2 half season were amazing and i will always love them and will always hold them close as my favorite serie.

But the serie made me hate Coulson and it made me hate May. The serie took Jemma and let her fall…she became so dark and really i love her and i understand her but the moment Jemma decided to kill someone in cold blood… i was so disapointed in her… she was a light… it wouldn’t be so bad if they hadn’t made Skye into a younger May.
When May took her training she made her into an agent…but Skye never was an agent. She was their light and their hope. She took the darkness and made it into light. She never looked at the dark, she always went looking for the light. She believed in the good of people, she believed power can change things, she believed that she can change things. Skye was so strong and Ward trained her to survive… he didn’t made her into a real agent… he let her be Skye.
May told her to keep calm to don’t let the feelings out… this wasn’t Skye anymore. When she started using the name Daisy i refused to call her that. But than was that episode were she told Lincoln that everyone should be turned that there shouldn’ be a cure for it. The episode were she went to interigate someone and used her power… that was the moment Skye died. Everything Skye believed in, everything she was… for me she lost it all in that moment. She became what she never wanted to be and that was the moment i accepted her name. That moment she became Daisy and Daisy is not a person i care about. Skye was… and yes maybe that is unfair. Because what ever Ward did i stood with him. But she wasn’t alone… she had so many friends, she had a family… I don’t hate her and i don’t want to made her the bad guy… she just isn’t my Skye anymore… Ward was always the broken boy for me that need to follow orders…

Since we all know that Ward died. It left me with not many people i care about. Bobbi and Hunter left the show. Lincoln died for Daisy…and i am really tired of watching people dying for Daisy… guys that is not a purpose… get a real life… but instead you go and save the earth… damm heros…

So i still care about Fitz. But Fitz is now happy with Jemma and this can be an end for me. As much i loved Fitz, i loved him the most with Ward or Hunter… were he grew above himself… and i will miss this so much…

I will miss the show. I will miss all the characters. But it is time for me. It is time… i hated that seeing the future thing and the every inhuman has a purpose thing (for obvious reasons) and i hated this who is going to die play… so all characters i care about are gone, dead or happy. So this is a ‘good’ end. For everyone who still love the show i hope that it will stay that way. I hope that you all have alot of fun with the show.

I would love to hear a few of your opinions abut the season final…about the characters. So feel free to write me! Please i love to write about this show about this characters. And i will always stand with Grant Ward. You were an amazing character. You were the most gray character i ever say. Grant Ward the broke boy that never had a real chance in life…rest in peace. You were from the first moment until the last moment my favorite character.

Goodbye Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. thank you for this serie, for this characters and thank you for Grant Ward.

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December 9

AoS: S03x09

Hey Guys,
sorry you had to wait so long for this opinion about the Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. episode. But this episode made me really angry. It is one of the best episodes this season and one of the worst. Their are so many things i love one the one hand and hate on the other… I am really afraid of the mid-season finale…

Rosalind

I has to say that this let me cold… this is bad and Ward again made a bad decission and killed someone. But this is the only thing i really care about. Because this is another step further away from redemptation…
I don’t understand what everyone found so interessting about Rosalind. I really disliked her and she never got me in anyway. The relationship between her and Coulson let me also cold. This has also to do with Coulson becoming more and more unsympatic and i start to don’t care about him or May anymore. So this is totally one reason. We don’t have to talk about that this murder and a crime. No argue with it. But the death that get me more was of his right hand. He just got interessting.

Get to know Ward

Here we go with one of the things i love and hate. Coulson is talking with everyone about Ward. Skye is actually having a really good insight in Ward. As much as i love that she actually beginn to understand what was going on in him, i don’t really see where this is coming from. Because even she was going through the same she never had seen it that way. Also is Fitz saying something like Ward was trying to replace something with him. Their were never any indication for it before.
But the worst part is that this episode tells us something really important and nobody seems to talk about. The good guys…all of them told Coulson that they believe that Ward was abused by is brother and family. They know he was talking the truth the whole time. And even when they are right that this is not excuse for going bad, this is showing us that they are no good people. This is not about not forgiving Ward. This is about Wards big brother.
Everyone know that Coulson was giving him to his brother and everyone believed that he abused Ward.
I still got really shaken by it when i think about it and i really could cry the whole time about it. Because these people are worse than anyone. You never ever hand victim back to the abuser… never… no matter what they did. They can imprision him or even sentence him to death (i am really against death sentence but it is better than that…) but you never give them to the abuser… This is cruel. But it shakes me even more that nobody seems to care about it from the viewer…

Thomas…and good guys can to everything…

Coulson is taking revenge. This is understandable but hey is the bad guy going for revenge it is a bad thing if the good guy does it, it is understandable…
Coulson is crossing a bridge here and people seems not to see that he totally he had sacrificed Thomas (sadly this is also the case for Hunter). The only reason Thomas is alive and not hurt is because of Bobbi. Because Bobbi seems to be the only human in S.H.I.E.L.D. which still can differentiate between good and bad.
Thomas is a theme that really hurt me. I love that we got to see his opinion on what happend, that we see that people don’t have turn out like Ward, that sometimes you can win against the odds. Also i love how realistic it is that they not understood how cruel it is what Thomas is saying. But i hate that the writes do nothing to show that to the viewer… that the don’t make them understand what Ward at to go through.
Thomas tells us that everything is true what Ward had told them about his brother and family. Also he tells us that Ward always protected him except for the well incidence. The well incidence that was the fault of Wards older brother.
Thomas was stronger than Ward and that is okay but Ward was never a strong character. He always need someone to follow… he is no leader. Never was. Never will be. He NEEDED help what Thomas could on his own Ward couldn’t. That doesn’t make him a bad person. Nothing that happend in his childhood did make him bad. It destroys him. He tries so hard to protect what is important to him. He could not protect Thomas. That is why he got obbsessed with protecting people that is why the love for Skye begann to become creepy.
All this people destroyed him and nobody is even admitting that they let him down. Ward is nothing different that Skye. Just that she has more luck that she is see as a good guy. He is like Coulson and May… he is not worse than S.H.I.E.L.D. and people need to understand that. Yes is a murderer that is what he became after Coulson tried to hand him over to his brother… Before that he was like every other agent…
We see this in that episode again… he knows better than to get used by Malick but in the end he is still doing what he said… he needs to follow…

Fanfic dreams…

After Jemmas story i thought that this would be a perfect oppurtunity to bring Ward redemptaion. Fitz is trying to save Will and lands with Ward on this lonley planet and they have to survive their alone. I was close to get that. i mean really Wards team will die really fast. Than he and Fitz would be alone…but than Coulson is distroying all my dreams… again…

Just to be said Mac is such a better director as Coulson…

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November 20

AoS: S03x07/08

Hey Guys,

here i am back to tell you what i think about the new Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. episodes. Ward has so much screen time this last episode it is so good to see him in action again. So this is episodes are about Andrew and CTPU…

We are cursed

Let’s start here because my little babies. Jemma can’t take it anymore that Fitz is so calm and just helping her and he can understand it. But this is way better than scream at her or anything. He is just in controll, which is kinda sad and also good. Fitz is a good person that is why he will never let Will alone in this world. Jemma asked him to help and that is what Fitz will do. Even when he knows that he will lose Jemma again in a way. We all know that she fall in love with Will. That doesn’t mean that she hadn’t feelings and still have for Fitz, but someone else is there…These two are also making the discovery that bounds all the storylines together.

Tell us something new

I don’t know why it is for everyone a surprise that Hydra is older than the Nazis. Sorry but the told us in Captain America Part one that Hydra just used the Nazi to do what they wanted. I am sure to that time almost every Hydra agent was a nazi but this isn’t something that is bound together. For it was always clear that Hydra was alot older than the Nazis… But this doesn’t change a thing in the Ward history. Because yes for Ward Hydra were Nazis. But Ward was until the third season never Hydra. But that isn’t the reason he is not a Nazi. He is not a Nazi because he liked Trip and he never made him feel little or bad. He always treated him and every other with respect also every woman he met before he did that supid line to get under Hills skin.

Second chance for Andrew Garner

I really don’t understand this. Why is everyone giving him a second chance? Why is nobody judging him? This change that the mist set in movment, doesn’t chance who you are. Raina was still Raina, Skye was still Skye, it doesn’t chance who you are. If you are a good person it doesn’t make you a bad one. This chance doesn’t make Andrew a monster. This way of thinking most have grown in him for a time. He thinks that he can decide who is worthy of this gift and who not. He is killing everyone he doesn’t like. He is trying to kill Lincoln. Yes i still don’t trust Lincoln but we never see him do anything else than helping people. He always wanted to help. The darkness that is now seen in is character is because his whole world broke down around him. Everything he believed in was wrong. But Andew doesn’ want to help him, he wants to kill him. He killed alot of people. Everyone talked about Lash as a monster. The bad example for Inhumans. Everything that Andrew said here was that he has do keep doing it. He doesn’t want to stop. He doesn’t want a cure. He wants out killing Inhumans.
But yes you are right this guy deserve a second chance… i know he is misguided and maybe you can save him and help find a way back. But this way is not cure…
So what Ward did in the end is what Andrew wanted… he didn’t do anything to Andew. He just give him what he wanted. Be not angry about with Ward, be angry with Andrew because he choose this. It was his choice.

Hydra or not

I don’t know what I feel about Rosalind not being Hydra. That she is just someone who get played too. Also i am not sure if i really believe her. Maybe she is still playing a game. I just don’t like her… it is her look… i don’t know…

Love the faces Ward did this episode. But i warn you Ward don’t do anything to hurt your future husband…

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October 8

AoS: S03x02

Hey Guys,

here we go with the second episode of Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. and it already made Ward discussed again. Again i have a very different opinion on all that. But i understand where they came from. So maybe will we just start with it. So i have it behind me.

Building Hydra again

Everyone that hated Ward and said that he was Hydra feels now like they were right and the other that loved Ward are disapointed in the showrunners. That are the too opinions i found. I wanted Ward go down the way of redemption. I wanted him to heal, to start over and that he found happiness. We saw him a whole season try to help Coulson and his team. When i have the second season on DVD i will write about it more. Now i just want to say that i am really sad that he is going down this way. But after the end of season two it was clear that it had to end like that. Everyone is angry at the write and want Ward to be killed so it ends… Ward becomes Gareth and yes that is the worst nightmare of people going through this but i also think that that is what happend way to often in the real world. Because they people don’t help them. Friends that don’t judge you,family… anything you can hold on. So Ward loosing everything again. He is broken again and this time he can’t hold on to the believe to go back together with his team. So he gives in. He changes and become the thing he knows how he can become it. This is a sad and for a story that could have ended good.
But why does it not end good and that is the really sad thing. The thing nobody really talks about. The team didn’t give him a second chance. Everyone get one, Skye even give one to her father. But Ward? They never even thing about giving him a chance. They are acting like he is a monster. Coulson know his background story. He knows it and he worked with Romanoff (who actually gets a second chance). But not Ward.
In a way i understand it but on the other hand i don’t. Mike can be forgiven and Ward not. Mike did it to save his son. Ward did it to save his ‘father’. Yes that is the only different.
Ward didn’t do anything worse than what Mike did… you know but look. Not just the team on TV also the fans of the show are not giving him a chance. They judge him and tell that he is evil, that is hydra. What we should be talking at is not that Ward took that way. We should be talking about the people that decided that he doesn’t deserve a second chance and what it would have chanced if just one of them listend to him. Just one.

Saving Simmons

A big part of the episode is the saving of Simmons. When Fitz found the first real hint of what the stone is, the team backs him up. They get the old Asgardinen and trying to open the portal. From that point the saving of Simmons is going really ‘easy’ and also they just distroy the artifact so no danger from it again. This was easy… The last scene indicates that what happend to Jemma will have a big role. I really hope it. I actually are a little bit disapointed. Everything turns out way to easy. Nothing really interessting happend. Hunter was actually again the best.

May and Hunter

May is back… it was clear that she would be but i wouldn’t have missed her. After her action in the finale, i really beginn to dislike her. What she did was evil… and i am not ready to forgive her. But of course Ward is the bad guy here. I get that Hunter wants revenge that is who he is. But i hate that they actually do this. Because it split the team up and removes the most interessting relationship from the focus. Hunter and Fitz that is what i wanted to see and now we got Hunter and May? I hope that everything went wrong and the have to go back really fast…

The next episode actually looks way more promising. Lincoln is the other reason to watch this show.

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March 30

AoS: Season 1 – Grant Ward

Hey Guys,
i started rewatch the serie and i want to talk about it. But i will do this different i will talk about the characters. So this will have spoilers for season 2! Because i rewatched with this knowledge and it just intinseve my opinion. So let’s start with my favorite person – Agent Ward.

The traitor behind the mask

I find it really hard to see the traitor in him in the early episodes. But i think it shows us more about the real Grant Ward. I kinda understand why Ward is so obsessed with Skye. He cames to that team with a mission to infiltrat them. He knows with who he is dealing. He as background on Fitzsimmons and May. He knows Coulson. You see how he can take them on distance. He can deal with them. He don’t understand them, but they don’t surprise him. Skye is the only wild card in that play. He doesn’t know her and doesn’t know which place she will have in the time. She surprises him. The way he looks at her sometimes. She see things different from him and she teaches him to see things from another perspective.

I think he really like the thought of teaching someone something. He likes to be a S.O. But he can’t get to Skye. Coulson tells him to be a person. The problem is he can’t open up. He can’t let them near him. Of course he is a profi and can tell a good story. But he doesn’t tell a story. No, he goes with the truth. He decided to tell Skye the real reason behind his life choices. This is really important. He is the person he is now because he had that brother. The reason he followed Garett was his brother. So it is really important that he told the truth about his defining moment.

This whole thing showed him, how you can handle problems on another way. It showed how good people can be and I think that this is also a part of why he decided to stay with Garetts, because deep down he don’t sees himself as a good person. He believes that he even after his betravel have a place in the team, but not because he thinks he is a good guy. It is because he sees the others as the good guys, as the ones that give second chance.

The glimps of history

We see Wards memories of the day he first felt hate. First you thought that it is Ward down there in that well, but it is his younger brother. We see a real glimps of what ward and his brother had to go through. The big brother turtored both of them in a different way. He played them, he abused them.

The most important thing is that we see here the real Ward. This hate for his brother and himself. This is him. Ward has closed this deep in him and never touched again. This memory take him by surprise, that he couldn’t control himself like he wanted to. This is Ward struggling to find himself again. He tries to do this the only way he knows with fighting, with punching thinks.

That of something real

We see him interact with the women in the team. With May, with Skye and with Simmons, but when we see him with Fitz we see him mocking Fitz or not understanding him. I think he didn’t take him serious. He saw in Fitz just a scientist with out a field clearence. A guy not made for field work. Also i think fitz got on his nerve. But when they had that suicide mission. He saws a different side of Fitz and he want to believe that what started on that mission between Fitz and Ward were real. Fitz earned his respect.

When Raina ask him, how he could cross them, how he could earn her trust. He is talking about giving Coulson someone to save, earning Simmons truth be saving her and getting personal with May. But he never said a word about Fitz and for me this is saying something about the relationship between them. I don’t want to say that the other three weren’t important for him in a way. But he never forget his goal. But with Fitz i think it was different. Skye is a different thing, she faszinated him and Fitz – i think the friendship with Fitz took him be surprise.

Brain washed

We know what his brother did to him. What his family did to him. We know that he burnt the house down and that his family is trying to get him behind bars. He has nothing left. He sees himself as weak because he believed his family. He wants to be strong. That is the biggest wish in him. Then Garrett comes and promise him to make him strong, to help him. Of course he has to do it. What Garrett does after that is manipulating him. He makes himself the older brother without Ward realizing it. Garrett is becoming a father he have had. He tells him that he is proud, that he can be strong, that he believes in him, he calls him son. This is all he wanted. Love… and he loves Garrett. But Garrett also teached him that feelings are weakness and weak is something he never can be.
What he do he didn’t out of his free will. He did it because Garrett made him do it.

The others

He is not Hydra. He is not a Nazi. This is clearly said in the season. He wants Garrett to get out, after the had saved his life. He never believed anything of it. He just follows Garrett – his father. He is a little kid, searching for strenght and love. He is struggling with what Garrett made him do. But after everything they did to him, can’t do anything for himself. He needs orders…that is the only thing he can do. Coulson tells him to think about what he is without Garrett, the answer is nothing… Garretts was his whole life and Coulson knows that…
Skye is telling him that he is weak and disgusting but forgives Mike everything. The only person that ever tried to understand him was Fitz. Another reason why this relationship is so important.

Stand with Grant Ward. Don’t give up on him. He just needs someone, who teach him, how love works and what real strenght is. He survived his family, deep down he has a good soul, deep done he have real strenght… he just needs to find it.

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