September 26

Goodbye Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. (this contains spoilers for season 3)

Hey Guys,

it hurts me to actually say this, but i am done with Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. and will not watch the fourth season. I loved the serie from the beginning and my love only grew stronger. We had 2 1/2 amazing seasons. I know what many of you will think now. Just because they killed Ward…
But Wards death – even when this death made me cry the most and heartbroken – was not the reason for this. I found the idea of a creature like Hive in a head like Ward interessting and in away they were very simular. I know why people think the end of Hive wasn’t strong enough… that he turned in the background and that Lincolns death would be more important. I don’t say you are not right. I love Lincoln but later to that – now i want to talk about Ward. My lovely Ward. The end was for me in away perfect because we saw Hive understanding something. He understood that the connection he created wasn’t a real connection. He understood that the real connection was what Lincoln shared with the humans. We saw Hive tell Lincoln that he just wanted to make the world a better place and yes look at the world. The world is a terrible place. There is war and death and people killing each other. We hate on each other for being different. He wanted to change this. He wanted the world a better place. He did it the wrong way. He did everything wrong for this to happen. But he didn’t knew better. He just didn’t knew better. Ward wanted to make up with his team. He tried to earn back this family but he did it in the wrong way. In all the wrong ways but he didn’t knew better.
Ward and Hive got created be other people. They got tortured and manipulated and were very lonley. All they wanted was a connection, a family, not being alone. Ward and Hive were so much alike. This end showed it to me how simular they were and it made me so sad… because Lincoln understood that Hive wanted to make it better… and i just think all the time what would have happend if Hive or Ward really had someone who cared enough about them and to show him how love function, how relationships work. They both could have made the world a better place.
And that is the reason i watched the show… it is one of the reason.

I watched S.H.I.E.L.D. because i love this organisation. They are so right and so wrong at the same time. They want the right things and always do it the wrong way. They want peace and protection but using the new power to create weapons. They have people like Black Widow and Hawkeye working for them – they are for the kill. Every freaking S.H.I.E.L.D. agent has blood on his hands. This organisation is not good and it is not bad either. This is totally a gray area and every step can kipp the balance in one direction. That was the good thing about the serie. It always showed us that they are not the good ones. They showed us hope. I still remember Wards face when he realized that he just had saved Mike. That he could actually do more than killing. We saw the characters grow… we saw them falling. We saw them failing and winning.

The serie doesn’t make often the things i wanted to see but the character developement was always logic… and i could live with it. I actually loved the serie more for making me hate Coulson. And really in the midseason final of season three i really hated him. He became a person i couldn’t like anymore. A person that gave the victim back to his abuser, a person that wanted to delete their memories to make them better… he just got the director of S.H.I.E.L.D.
All characters were so human… they had their flaws not to little… it was amazing to watch them deal with everything. I loved to hate them, i loved to love them. I cried for them and i screamed for them, i discussed about them.
Nothing can take that from me. The 2 1/2 half season were amazing and i will always love them and will always hold them close as my favorite serie.

But the serie made me hate Coulson and it made me hate May. The serie took Jemma and let her fall…she became so dark and really i love her and i understand her but the moment Jemma decided to kill someone in cold blood… i was so disapointed in her… she was a light… it wouldn’t be so bad if they hadn’t made Skye into a younger May.
When May took her training she made her into an agent…but Skye never was an agent. She was their light and their hope. She took the darkness and made it into light. She never looked at the dark, she always went looking for the light. She believed in the good of people, she believed power can change things, she believed that she can change things. Skye was so strong and Ward trained her to survive… he didn’t made her into a real agent… he let her be Skye.
May told her to keep calm to don’t let the feelings out… this wasn’t Skye anymore. When she started using the name Daisy i refused to call her that. But than was that episode were she told Lincoln that everyone should be turned that there shouldn’ be a cure for it. The episode were she went to interigate someone and used her power… that was the moment Skye died. Everything Skye believed in, everything she was… for me she lost it all in that moment. She became what she never wanted to be and that was the moment i accepted her name. That moment she became Daisy and Daisy is not a person i care about. Skye was… and yes maybe that is unfair. Because what ever Ward did i stood with him. But she wasn’t alone… she had so many friends, she had a family… I don’t hate her and i don’t want to made her the bad guy… she just isn’t my Skye anymore… Ward was always the broken boy for me that need to follow orders…

Since we all know that Ward died. It left me with not many people i care about. Bobbi and Hunter left the show. Lincoln died for Daisy…and i am really tired of watching people dying for Daisy… guys that is not a purpose… get a real life… but instead you go and save the earth… damm heros…

So i still care about Fitz. But Fitz is now happy with Jemma and this can be an end for me. As much i loved Fitz, i loved him the most with Ward or Hunter… were he grew above himself… and i will miss this so much…

I will miss the show. I will miss all the characters. But it is time for me. It is time… i hated that seeing the future thing and the every inhuman has a purpose thing (for obvious reasons) and i hated this who is going to die play… so all characters i care about are gone, dead or happy. So this is a ‘good’ end. For everyone who still love the show i hope that it will stay that way. I hope that you all have alot of fun with the show.

I would love to hear a few of your opinions abut the season final…about the characters. So feel free to write me! Please i love to write about this show about this characters. And i will always stand with Grant Ward. You were an amazing character. You were the most gray character i ever say. Grant Ward the broke boy that never had a real chance in life…rest in peace. You were from the first moment until the last moment my favorite character.

Goodbye Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. thank you for this serie, for this characters and thank you for Grant Ward.

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March 30

AoS: Season 1 – Grant Ward

Hey Guys,
i started rewatch the serie and i want to talk about it. But i will do this different i will talk about the characters. So this will have spoilers for season 2! Because i rewatched with this knowledge and it just intinseve my opinion. So let’s start with my favorite person – Agent Ward.

The traitor behind the mask

I find it really hard to see the traitor in him in the early episodes. But i think it shows us more about the real Grant Ward. I kinda understand why Ward is so obsessed with Skye. He cames to that team with a mission to infiltrat them. He knows with who he is dealing. He as background on Fitzsimmons and May. He knows Coulson. You see how he can take them on distance. He can deal with them. He don’t understand them, but they don’t surprise him. Skye is the only wild card in that play. He doesn’t know her and doesn’t know which place she will have in the time. She surprises him. The way he looks at her sometimes. She see things different from him and she teaches him to see things from another perspective.

I think he really like the thought of teaching someone something. He likes to be a S.O. But he can’t get to Skye. Coulson tells him to be a person. The problem is he can’t open up. He can’t let them near him. Of course he is a profi and can tell a good story. But he doesn’t tell a story. No, he goes with the truth. He decided to tell Skye the real reason behind his life choices. This is really important. He is the person he is now because he had that brother. The reason he followed Garett was his brother. So it is really important that he told the truth about his defining moment.

This whole thing showed him, how you can handle problems on another way. It showed how good people can be and I think that this is also a part of why he decided to stay with Garetts, because deep down he don’t sees himself as a good person. He believes that he even after his betravel have a place in the team, but not because he thinks he is a good guy. It is because he sees the others as the good guys, as the ones that give second chance.

The glimps of history

We see Wards memories of the day he first felt hate. First you thought that it is Ward down there in that well, but it is his younger brother. We see a real glimps of what ward and his brother had to go through. The big brother turtored both of them in a different way. He played them, he abused them.

The most important thing is that we see here the real Ward. This hate for his brother and himself. This is him. Ward has closed this deep in him and never touched again. This memory take him by surprise, that he couldn’t control himself like he wanted to. This is Ward struggling to find himself again. He tries to do this the only way he knows with fighting, with punching thinks.

That of something real

We see him interact with the women in the team. With May, with Skye and with Simmons, but when we see him with Fitz we see him mocking Fitz or not understanding him. I think he didn’t take him serious. He saw in Fitz just a scientist with out a field clearence. A guy not made for field work. Also i think fitz got on his nerve. But when they had that suicide mission. He saws a different side of Fitz and he want to believe that what started on that mission between Fitz and Ward were real. Fitz earned his respect.

When Raina ask him, how he could cross them, how he could earn her trust. He is talking about giving Coulson someone to save, earning Simmons truth be saving her and getting personal with May. But he never said a word about Fitz and for me this is saying something about the relationship between them. I don’t want to say that the other three weren’t important for him in a way. But he never forget his goal. But with Fitz i think it was different. Skye is a different thing, she faszinated him and Fitz – i think the friendship with Fitz took him be surprise.

Brain washed

We know what his brother did to him. What his family did to him. We know that he burnt the house down and that his family is trying to get him behind bars. He has nothing left. He sees himself as weak because he believed his family. He wants to be strong. That is the biggest wish in him. Then Garrett comes and promise him to make him strong, to help him. Of course he has to do it. What Garrett does after that is manipulating him. He makes himself the older brother without Ward realizing it. Garrett is becoming a father he have had. He tells him that he is proud, that he can be strong, that he believes in him, he calls him son. This is all he wanted. Love… and he loves Garrett. But Garrett also teached him that feelings are weakness and weak is something he never can be.
What he do he didn’t out of his free will. He did it because Garrett made him do it.

The others

He is not Hydra. He is not a Nazi. This is clearly said in the season. He wants Garrett to get out, after the had saved his life. He never believed anything of it. He just follows Garrett – his father. He is a little kid, searching for strenght and love. He is struggling with what Garrett made him do. But after everything they did to him, can’t do anything for himself. He needs orders…that is the only thing he can do. Coulson tells him to think about what he is without Garrett, the answer is nothing… Garretts was his whole life and Coulson knows that…
Skye is telling him that he is weak and disgusting but forgives Mike everything. The only person that ever tried to understand him was Fitz. Another reason why this relationship is so important.

Stand with Grant Ward. Don’t give up on him. He just needs someone, who teach him, how love works and what real strenght is. He survived his family, deep down he has a good soul, deep done he have real strenght… he just needs to find it.

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March 26

AoS: S02x14 – Love in the time of Hydra

Hey Guys,

welcome to the best episode of Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D. so far. Why? Easy answer. Grant Ward is back in the game and this is the most perfect part of the serie and i really, really like the story that they are writting him here.

Look who is back

Let’s just start with the obvious. He is back and he is awesome like he always is. Agent 33 cared for Ward after Skye shot him. Ward sees in her himself. Everyone is talking about Wards ulterior motives. Nobody talks about the big step he has doing in this episode. For the first time in the serie. He is seeing what Garrett did to him, or part of it. This is a big step to heal himself from the wounds.
Agent 33 is like him and here he has the possiblity to help her or do the same thing Garrett did to him. This is really amazing story because this is a blancing act for him. It is easy to do what Garrett did, because doesn’t know it better. But we see him trying.
Also they talk about the lie he told about the family reuion. I don’t think of it as a lie. He knows what happend there and she knows it too. I think she understands what he is really saying. Because this is payback, this is make them feel like they felt. This is the wrong way to heal themselfs from the abuse of these people.

Over Skye

One scene is for me really important. Agent 33 is taking Skyes face to pay him back. This scene tells us so much. Of course he isn’t over Skye. How could he after he was obessessed with her. But we see here that he is trying to let that go, because he finally sees that she isn’t feeling the same for him. We see the first steps Ward is taking and recreate himself.

A better S.H.I.E.L.D.

Look at that the real S.H.I.E.L.D. Everyone who follows me knows that i lost much respect for Coulson because of the way he handles things right now. But the other S.H.I.E.L.D. is not better and actually seems even worse. But this is a really good way to show, how the reality will be. Splinter Groups so i am really happy they bring that in. We will see if the can make it into a good storyline.
Hunter seems to think like me. That is really amazing because for a short time i was afraid of losing him to the real S.H.I.E.L.D.

Fitzsimmons

Fitzsimmons are getting forther away form each other. I am clearly on Fitz side here. So we find us looking at the disussion of them what this power could do. But the most important part his that he tells Jemma what i was thinking. Everyone changed in season two and after Trips death, the change again… Fitz change in a big way, also Skye. We see the change in them clearly. The change of the other is different. But Jemma changed a lot and i think this is realistic… but also the scariest. Because the nice girl, is just bitter now…

Let’s see were the next episode will lead.

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