April 23

AoS: Season 1 – Leo Fitz

Hey Guys,

i thought a long time if i should write about Leo Fitz and Jemma Simmons together or if i will do this seperate. Fitz is after Grant Ward (Grant Ward – Season 1) my favorite person. But this is not the reason i decided to do this seperate, it is the storyline they get in the second season. So here i go again and warning for spoilers for the second season. Because i know what happend and this will flow in my thoughts about him. So yeah big spoilers.

Fitzsimmons

This is the biggest thing in his life. Jemma is like his sun. Everything in his life is about her. He works with her, he trust her like nobody else. She is his best friend, his soulmate. They are so close, there isn’t much room for anything else. Nobody really thinks about them seperate. For them they are a unity. You can’t seperate them. This friendship is something really really special. I love to see the way the trust each other, how they work together, how the knows what the other is thinking. This conection is so deep.
So how could it break so easly in season 2? It started when Fitz realize that he love Jemma. He never thought about it. She was just always with him and his best friend. He even tried to land by Skye. But when he is about to lose her. He realize that she is the one. This changes things. In little things we can see. They way Fitz is looking at her now. The way he lies to make her smile. After this point his life is more about Jemma than ever. He is trying to get closer and she is going and open to other people.They both moving in different directions.

The need to prove himself

Fitz is a genius and he knows it. He know what he can do and he knows what he can’t do. He is no Grant Ward, or Mike Peterson or Trip. He can do what he wants, but he never will be like them. This is a good thing, but he sees Jemma looking at these people and he needs to prove that he is worthy her attention. She never compare them, because she know he is worthy, that he is strong and brave. But he compares himself and that is why he tries to prove himself over and over again. After the mission with Ward it becomes better. Than Trip joins them and he needs to show that he knows much more than Trip. He don’t really believe in himself. He never needed to, because Jemma was.

Ward

Ward is a really important part for Fitz. From the begining he is searching the contact to Ward. But they never conected with each other before the mission. The built trust between each other. The are becoming friends. This is important for Fitz. The respect of Ward is really important for him and his way to see himself. When the found out that Ward is working for Garrett, Fitz is the one that is breaking down. He refuses to believe it. Because this is his friend. Because Ward is important to him. Skye says that he is a hero because he still wanted to believe in him after everything. Fitz is a hero, but not because he choose to believe in Ward. He was just realistic. Of course there is a reason. Of course there is more. Of course nobody is born evil. Believing that doesn’t make him a hero. Sacrifies is life for Jemma this makes him a hero, to refuse to give up.

Fitz has to be strong in the next season. He has to deal with what Ward did to him. How can live with what happend and all that without Jemma. Without someone believing in him.

March 30

AoS: Season 1 – Grant Ward

Hey Guys,
i started rewatch the serie and i want to talk about it. But i will do this different i will talk about the characters. So this will have spoilers for season 2! Because i rewatched with this knowledge and it just intinseve my opinion. So let’s start with my favorite person – Agent Ward.

The traitor behind the mask

I find it really hard to see the traitor in him in the early episodes. But i think it shows us more about the real Grant Ward. I kinda understand why Ward is so obsessed with Skye. He cames to that team with a mission to infiltrat them. He knows with who he is dealing. He as background on Fitzsimmons and May. He knows Coulson. You see how he can take them on distance. He can deal with them. He don’t understand them, but they don’t surprise him. Skye is the only wild card in that play. He doesn’t know her and doesn’t know which place she will have in the time. She surprises him. The way he looks at her sometimes. She see things different from him and she teaches him to see things from another perspective.

I think he really like the thought of teaching someone something. He likes to be a S.O. But he can’t get to Skye. Coulson tells him to be a person. The problem is he can’t open up. He can’t let them near him. Of course he is a profi and can tell a good story. But he doesn’t tell a story. No, he goes with the truth. He decided to tell Skye the real reason behind his life choices. This is really important. He is the person he is now because he had that brother. The reason he followed Garett was his brother. So it is really important that he told the truth about his defining moment.

This whole thing showed him, how you can handle problems on another way. It showed how good people can be and I think that this is also a part of why he decided to stay with Garetts, because deep down he don’t sees himself as a good person. He believes that he even after his betravel have a place in the team, but not because he thinks he is a good guy. It is because he sees the others as the good guys, as the ones that give second chance.

The glimps of history

We see Wards memories of the day he first felt hate. First you thought that it is Ward down there in that well, but it is his younger brother. We see a real glimps of what ward and his brother had to go through. The big brother turtored both of them in a different way. He played them, he abused them.

The most important thing is that we see here the real Ward. This hate for his brother and himself. This is him. Ward has closed this deep in him and never touched again. This memory take him by surprise, that he couldn’t control himself like he wanted to. This is Ward struggling to find himself again. He tries to do this the only way he knows with fighting, with punching thinks.

That of something real

We see him interact with the women in the team. With May, with Skye and with Simmons, but when we see him with Fitz we see him mocking Fitz or not understanding him. I think he didn’t take him serious. He saw in Fitz just a scientist with out a field clearence. A guy not made for field work. Also i think fitz got on his nerve. But when they had that suicide mission. He saws a different side of Fitz and he want to believe that what started on that mission between Fitz and Ward were real. Fitz earned his respect.

When Raina ask him, how he could cross them, how he could earn her trust. He is talking about giving Coulson someone to save, earning Simmons truth be saving her and getting personal with May. But he never said a word about Fitz and for me this is saying something about the relationship between them. I don’t want to say that the other three weren’t important for him in a way. But he never forget his goal. But with Fitz i think it was different. Skye is a different thing, she faszinated him and Fitz – i think the friendship with Fitz took him be surprise.

Brain washed

We know what his brother did to him. What his family did to him. We know that he burnt the house down and that his family is trying to get him behind bars. He has nothing left. He sees himself as weak because he believed his family. He wants to be strong. That is the biggest wish in him. Then Garrett comes and promise him to make him strong, to help him. Of course he has to do it. What Garrett does after that is manipulating him. He makes himself the older brother without Ward realizing it. Garrett is becoming a father he have had. He tells him that he is proud, that he can be strong, that he believes in him, he calls him son. This is all he wanted. Love… and he loves Garrett. But Garrett also teached him that feelings are weakness and weak is something he never can be.
What he do he didn’t out of his free will. He did it because Garrett made him do it.

The others

He is not Hydra. He is not a Nazi. This is clearly said in the season. He wants Garrett to get out, after the had saved his life. He never believed anything of it. He just follows Garrett – his father. He is a little kid, searching for strenght and love. He is struggling with what Garrett made him do. But after everything they did to him, can’t do anything for himself. He needs orders…that is the only thing he can do. Coulson tells him to think about what he is without Garrett, the answer is nothing… Garretts was his whole life and Coulson knows that…
Skye is telling him that he is weak and disgusting but forgives Mike everything. The only person that ever tried to understand him was Fitz. Another reason why this relationship is so important.

Stand with Grant Ward. Don’t give up on him. He just needs someone, who teach him, how love works and what real strenght is. He survived his family, deep down he has a good soul, deep done he have real strenght… he just needs to find it.